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FTA was written by Kennie Kayoz, it was written out of stress and
anger from Kennie's life as he's always found the best way to release
stress and anger was through his writing, so with it being a fair
amount of time since a major release from Coyotes Publishing Kennie
decided to write what is known as FTA, in hopes of releasing anger
and stress before the Christmas holidays.
Kennie would like to give his two cents about the release:
first off Thanks for downloading the ebook from whoever picked it up
since I know at times it's tough to shop poetry to sites but the
sites that continue to help support and get our names out there are
always appreciated in what they do not to mention the hundreds of
people who continue to download our major releases we appreciate each
and every download hit that you guys bring in, aside from that I know
that Christmas time can be a stressful time of the year one of the
more stressful times of years considering Christmas always brings
alot to people and it also brings in a wide range of emotions to each
individual person those emotions can mean something different,
however with my emotions I bring to you FTA. I hope that you
understand where I'm coming from and that even though I know at this
time of year it is very very easy to offend people specially with the
high levels of stress that are in the air, so once again I hope that
you enjoy what you read and continue to support 4E Inc and everything
that we do in the new year..."
Just Drop The Pen
claimin they be tryin but not livin up to expectations.
fail to push there own limitations.
that I say, Just drop the pen.
from it so it can soak in.
the pen an forget writin.
talent bug don't be bitin.
want your stuff to flow.
don't want to pick up the pen & go.
drop the pen.
down, walk away an call it in.
not writin to your expectations.
must have talent in other places.
So do the
world the fuckin favor.
fuckin pen an grab the razor.
think is talent tryin to get out.
agravation leadin to an assault.
drop the fuckin pen once an for all.
need to be holdin ya when ya think your gonna constantly fall.
out, the one with the cripple mind.
sometime I could have a nervous breakdown then be fine.
these cripple words allow me to string two words.
to use my fuckd up voice to let myself be heard.
the problems in my mind.
like I write all the time.
that everything I do would work out.
I need to fail just so I can get out.
To let out
these voices in my head.
people think I would be better off dead.
thoughts could come out.
won't help as much as I want to shout.
I want to
cripple mind will pay off in time.
Pop Culture Me
up make me look nice.
to stop bein food for mice.
Do with me
what you shall.
job, ya wouldn't even call.
Let me be
all fake, give me the money.
the poperazzi will find me funny.
snap photos of me at my worse.
Ask me the
questions, speculate while I converse.
off the streets, an put me in the spotlight.
to be fake when I say "everythins tight"
allow me to have my privacy anymore.
If I say
the wrong thing give me media galore.
what is said I won't sell.
don't matter if my world is hell.
claimed you were hirin like crazy.
fuckin calls to me cause ya be lazy.
SO why the
fuck did you even say.
be makin calls, you assumed it was OK.
mentioned you in a rhyme.
you at my will.
havin to pop a pill.
what ya fate would be.
clamin good shit when ya talk to me.
what you be sayin.
So now I
gotta be slayin.
victim you shall stay.
you've already got on my nerves.
fuckin bitch keep throwin me curves.
me to jump through your hoops.
ask for a loop 2 loop.
any kind of storm.
will be a mental note.
after ya throat gets slit.
all she fuckin wrote...
lookin at the sky so blue.
that just makes my mind wonder doesn't yours.
in various patterns.
the sky like homeless rags all tattern.
it with various forms.
havin various storms.
& physical the storms inside.
it take for each to explode in my mind.
the wrong thing said.
a boot to your head.
knows in this world, anythin can happen.
As long as
it'd bring them satisfaction.
watched is the soccerfield thinkin somethin thats wrong.
wouldn't admit it, never in your life you would.
though deep inside you should.
had to confront the ones who write.
a rabid dog I'd be the first to bite.
Here I sit
in an open field outta the way.
happy now, or are ya gonna try to turn my day grey ?
started yesterday with your daughter bitchin.
look over you can bet that I'm itchin.
over an shoot my mouth off real quick.
An to tell
you to shut your mouth an suck my dick.
in a blaze of disgust.
you haven't even annoyed either of us.
If you did
you wouldn't forget.
you'd actually regret.
for one second I'd be a nice guy.
I'd let my emotions shoot for the shy.
fear me everytime you returned.
wouldn't want to get re-burned.
Even if I
wasn't around you will remember.
I remember that day back in december.
ball is in my court an i'll have fun.
try to call the cops.
to this park.
includin after dark.
you don't cross me on a day I'm down.
I'll drive ya bitch ass into the ground.
here continuin to be sad.
that I still had my Dad.
everythin was swell.
on my arm, money in my pocket.
thought that one day woulda fuckd it.
put me in a loss.
At one day
bein a boss.
next not havin a thing.
dreams out the window whats next I ask.
problems away till I see the end of the flask.
wantin to get outta bed.
As I got
depression runnin rampid in my head.
wonder if I'd be better off dead.
worries, no problems, no money.
almost me now aint that funny.
BUt I got
plenty of worries, even more problems.
money don't ask cause I can't even remember my last pay.
sure it went quicker than anythin.
with the bills I got pilled up.
maybe I need to keep my mouth shut.
seems to be workin so perhaps I should be corkin.
disappear an live ina homeless hut.
future, where I'm destined to be.
though I don't know what the fuck to do with me.
Day Of Rejection
it, look at me.
off resumes, so reject me.
I know you
can find somethin you don't like.
So if you
want I'll tell ya "fuck off dyke"
Just a day
of drownin, a day so fit.
A day that
I just want to give up on all this shit.
forced down this road.
darker an crustier as days go by.
through all this, Just wonderin why.
must go through all this.
like my last jobs were mist.
didn't exsist so no one wants to call.
as I continue to fall.
on doin this constantly.
still no one will hire me.
Show Me... The Good Life
home all alone.
yellin an bitchin comin from the floor above.
that I'm the cause since all they want to do is shove.
Me out the
door an forget I ever exsisted.
my fault that I can't find a job that'll take me in.
the radio where Kanye speaks of "Good Life"
I fail to
see what he means as it's not the life I live.
If he has
all that money perhaps he should give.
way to someone who needs it.
I'm not a tax write off, doesn't mean I don't accept.
life only exsists if you have more money than imaginable.
I know I
have a shitty life.
even have a shitty job I have to envy my wifes.
this life anymore, I want somethin better.
I want to
live what Kanye speaks of the "Good Life"
I need to
feel that goodness, give me the riches.
feel useful an wanted by society.
than havin me bein brushed to the side.
Life" doesn't exsist in my eyes.
see it, my pockets are always empty.
Unemployed... Yet Again
Standing infront'em they fear for the
lives they live.
All I want
was the job that they would not give.
seems to have caused me a great deal of stress.
should run up an start to confess.
thing to hit'em with is my look that needed to be addressed.
my fault I look like this, I was born with what you see.
eyes, big head an perhaps a lil too greedy.
could spit that out they reject me and pass me to the next.
already been down that line so who the fuck is left.
had the chance to show'em what I can do.
first day at KFC I was all pissed and blue.
to bring me in on a day I couldn't be trained.
around for the most part bored outta my fuckin brain.
me fuckin nuts, it made me sad.
to throw up my emotions were that bad.
back was what I did in hopes of it being the job.
realized they threw me aside, they thught I was a slob.
Shy I was,
never said much to anyone... But that's just me.
Smiled, I never do smile a whole lot so why start.
shit is over I'm back to bein unemployed.
refuse to fuckin pay me, they shouldn't have toyed.
since it just made me more angry.
what can I do.
Red & Green... Yup It's World Wide.
Blood, Blood all around.
falling from the sky, Blood on the ground.
victims falling to the ground, life lines severed.
occur just weeks before the holidays.
Liars, pushed too far.
runnin down victims with cars.
life of lies.
of murderous villians in there eyes.
screen, turns to RollsRoyce.
gets snagged from the ones with no voice.
teenages continue to fire.
blood continue to haunt holiday desires.
criminals lookin to get there own stash.
waitin tryin to get ahead in life.
could mean you keep your wife.
Never enough for anyone, yet always wishin for more.
live like the rich.
though you be a smelly poor bitch.
makes people go crazy.
people to quit actin lazy.
victims, wished they never have to happen.
good thing, now gone bad.
that I met my wife, is now a place making people mad.
no longer a spot to chat it's a spot of sorrow.
stupid people causing death and destruction.
once the top contender of the Social Network.
Now is just a meer
thread in the quilt of the Networking Social.
have myspace sites, but we don't go on it as much as we use to.
the future for myspace and just like it's colors myspace's future is
bleek, the curtain shall be lowered.
networking site that has brought many hope and joy, can now be found
on the list of what once was.
once a great place, it now is a tragic place to be apart of.
profiles continue to stand, it takes up none of our time anymore.
shall forever hold such great memories to us.
shall forever bring horror to so many more.
Myspace forever you shall continue to fall.
Twice They Toll
toll twice for the recently departed.
to level two of life as they're new lives are now started.
As we say
good bye others say hello to the new children.
gate as St. Peter welcomes all of the new arrivals, none of which are
and becoming more angry, they're forced to watched loved ones.
can't join but only watch in silence.
wished they could kiss them just once.
the lives they wish that they could.
the ones they know they should.
being away from them in a kingdom.
for another chance.
if they could, they wouldn't be reconized.
hold different looks as well as different eyes.
toll twice, the thoughts of sadness rains down upon all below.
troubled earth to move on to a much bigger show.
heaven a stressful enviroment, since you can't be with who you want.
person may still be down here on earth.
life for what it's worth.
Only to be
making minimum wage.
cryin wishin they two were on the grandest stage.
Hide My Face
face from the world.
let'em see a constant face of sorrow.
hide it anyway possible, mask or paint.
seen my real face you'd want to faint.
hideous that you'd want to scream and run.
fun of me at my own expense for your own fun.
me see the light of day.
to stay beneath ground level.
they won't have to worry about a shovel.
Just a set
of stairs to lead you down toward my metaphorical grave.
in which my room lies, cold and dark just like a cave.
from the world as I shall remain.
thoughts of me shall be forever vain.
never come to the light.
show anyone any sense of me being bright.
To live in
the shadows, to die amongst my family.
who doesn't judge nor bitch.
that doesn't need money to feel ritch.
forever hide my face.
else can always take my place.
from the world.
nobody to see.
Why is it
that people keep tryin to find what isn't there.
guy who draws a stare.
A stare of
disgust as the mutant walks the street.
disgust whenever people see me.
continue to move about with the rest of'em.
to hide in the dark.
follow the moon.
nobody is around.
walkin with my eyes starrin at the ground.
shall I raise my head to look.
havin any self confidence.
last one to finish.
to get bitched at.
grease an always gettin fat.
more grotesque as the days live on.
always be my enemy.
what the future holds.
continues to get so brash an bold.
changes of myself our doubtful.
having the devil lurking over my shoulder.
out the mistakes I've made in the past.
show me that I'll always be a failure.
I think I see clearly I see you over my shoulder looking to pummel
deal with you anytime that I have came across my past.
like life always wanting to give me the shaft.
Am I the
only one who lives in constant fear.
others have there own demons in the closet.
they've done that they'll forever be haunted by.
clean slate, can never hide from the past.
into people's eyes make me see my own faults.
one seems to be like livin inside of a cult.
there to remind myself of my mistakes.
How can I
erase the past when it continues to chase.
friends forever hoping that I'll continue to run.
of one day finally having any bit of fun.
clearly that you'll continue to be MY ENEMY !!!!
All you do
is bitch no matter what I do you never seem to be happy.
having somethin to say and always findin somethin you dislike.
it's just me that deep down you hate because of no real reason.
that you chose to give birth to but no doubt you'd like to have your
you can stop the seed from being planted.
wouldn't have someone as pathetic as myself as your son.
do any good in your eyes.
you'd rather forget and regret.
from the flock at such a young age.
older an don't want to go back.
even talk to you anymore.
As if I
could talk to you before hand.
the day in December I was pushed back.
of you forgetting me as I always remain in the shadows.
day that when you come into the house that I'm not.
you would prefer me not livin or not here.
what youd' like since at times it's not clear.
the time it's clear you don't want me.
that bad then just sign the papers and let me be free.
Black Soul Full Of Pain
full of pain, as it continues to grow up in vain.
that I can't do any good in your eyes.
be either perfect or rejected.
loved or being neglected.
All I can
do is try but apparently me trying is no fuckin good.
you rather me do.
would you rahter me go.
an hopes are stupid in your eyes.
everyday that you walk inside the house that you'd get a surprise.
here, one way or another you wish I'd leave.
incapable of doing so at this time.
you'd rather me leave the earth.
burning in the eternal place that is hell.
you seem to grow madder and madder at me.
continue to grow in anger and resentment.
that I'm nothing good, seeing that I can't do anything you wish.
Kennie Kayoz -
Am I Trapped ?
that when things go up they gotta come down.
has some luck, but mine ran out.
even imagine my life without the pen.
forever bottling it up deep inside.
emotions get the best of me each time.
thinking, always saying.
acting, always reacting.
always been a hard thing to sell.
back in the olden days when it was here before music.
world of poetry has changed.
and sounds are now on a grander stage.
spotlights, fast cars and whores galore.
MuchMusic, touring the country.
live the life thats fast and free.
I'm stuck in one place and going no where.
pushing for those days that I wake up different.
morning it's always the same thing.
in the same bed, to the same shitty life.
work at a shitty job alongside of my wife.
Is this my
destiny or am I out for greater things.
be worried about what the future holds.
Am I at
the peak of my life, looking for my chance to fold.
the case then give me a sign.
know that I'm not going to have anything more.
that my life will forever be a bore.
always be living in the basement never getting out.
a grave, always trying to figure shit out.
Keepin Me Hidden
this small town is labeled with bustin your ass.
I want to
be the one who makes it and beable to hold plenty of class.
who blew up without anyone knowing what he was about.
read it in the news, see me on TV then see me on the street.
them show me love and be proud of me, let them walk to my beat.
the music behind me all I got are the words.
comes to my motto the pen is mightier than the sword.
you have to say via pen, let it all out don't be scared.
your just like me, since nobody really cared.
you have done, or what you have to say.
sway peoples thoughts or make them want to read.
As it all
comes down to doing what you have to, always wanting to succeed.
Get use to
people always letting you down, having backs turned on you.
hoodie handy keep it close you'll never know when ya need it.
of people an toss it on.
Put the hood up an let the frown down.
them see how your really feeling.
I both know that they can say what they want it won't make you feel
you always keep close to that sweater.
gets tough an you've got no where to turn.
hoodie on and let the tears burn.
I Hate It
always sitting around with no money and never anything to do.
looking for happiness where it can't be found.
around always starring at the ground.
to do anything that I really want to do.
compromise with everything to make it work.
other people do what I want to do.
having a chance to do anything that I deep down want.
over-running this world and making me worry.
quick it comes and goes, always needing more.
Why is it
that I can't do anything but always scrap the bottom of the barrel.
more money always needing more coin and bills.
having to struggle with what I have to make the best of it.
others run wild over everything like money is no object.
miles behind of the lowest of the low.
always running behind the slowest of the slow.