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Five O'clock Pizza

By Jacob Andersen

Copyright 2017 Jacob Andersen

Smashwords Edition

The flowers are everywhere

It's all just a game

Who lives who dies

How to open the door

Choose to believe

Our minds are bigger than we think

Who wrote the program?

You are me

You will see what you want to see

Chocolate tacos

Fresh strawberries

"Our basic rule is to treat others as you wish to be treated and don't do anything to scam or hurt another."

Chocolate strawberries

God's joke

How many waves are in the ocean

God's toy

Sobriety is so much easier

... How many times have I seen you in my heart

Given the option to live somewhere else

But choosing to remain human

... Multiple options abound

It's all done by volume, nobody cares

What cannot be corrupted

There is no longer anything to complain about

When the world is still magic

You can have anything you want

... Sing your own song and move on

This is what we produce

The perfect machine

Each person another piece

... What it means to be human

When you spend decades of your life intoxicated what are you

I had a girlfriend once

Nothing goes to waste

We are all chasing something

Be strong in one land so you can affect another

Everyone has his or her location

Which drug did it

It’s more than one drug

This is my world

Many possibilities abound

Within the structure of teaching

Life is something you do every day

Constant attention to detail

Learning what not to do

Cooperation under pressure

Shapes me into what I can become

Look no further than yourself

... That person is a reflection of you

I have thought of you more than you know

Maybe you have done the same

For me

Separately I think without nervousness

Thinking alone without you

When you're not around

I go far into my imagination

When your not here

But it isn't real not as tangible

When you’re close

I get to deal with you for real

Feeling emotions

It would be fun if we touched

I don't know

Just something I thought of

What goes on in my mind when I'm thinking of you

It is marvelous

Be with me

So much is dead and growing

lying dormant under snow

till dew dribbles down your check

Gain your own space

then look

The way

people are



parents and

what I see

The parents

and their


You should have

other things to do


In my dreams

intense thoughts


How people

get into


Get the person

into it versus


Anything meaningful

and how we

relate to it

Less precise goes to

precise then you

look at it

Will relate

to the human

experience, condition

You can

make up your own mind

about it

Putting it all together

I succeed

listening to my own music

I'm willing to

share the

rest of my life

with you

Sometimes you have to try it

An awful

lot of






if we made love


Then {I} back off

and let your

interests die for a while

Putting it

all together

we learn


My thoughts extend to you. Why?

I love. I am. I love you. Why?

Why do I love,


I'm sitting at the pub again, drinking

beer. A woman told me not to drink.

I do. I am young. I drink here

tonight. With you, my love? I

love you.

So I wrote. I continued. I never stopped writing, to you. I'm sitting

at the pub thinking over how much I

love you. ... Sit still. ... I'm still talking

my love. ... I still love you.

We sat together once, a long time ago

and we loved, kind of. I loved you. Why

the lose? Did we cease to love?

My love and yours intertwined.

There can be no ending. That is why

I love. Together today feel these emotions.

I love.

How far can we go? Together

in this world I do not know. I don’t

care. I love.

We loved, together. We love even

now. Don’t forget, I loved.

Rambling thoughts or too much

beer? ... Guess what? ... I love

you, today and tomorrow we kiss together.

We love blending melting

minds together as one.

Was I just imagining this?

Two people together, kissing and loving in

one air. Amazing. We loved together.

I loved you, but does it matter

any more. We loved.

Touching, holding, hold me

to you. ... I love. ... You did. Together

we love. ... Never ending thought, rambling

emotions, I love.

I love you.

We love, together. Touching

holding fondling peacefully ... together.

Your lips bind, inert. I love.

People think and write, sometimes.

So did you. Try it out. I think

you’ll like the place I purpose.

We love together.

I write. I am.

We write together.

Love her

and she loves me.

He loves me also.

Does that mean we love, or not?

I love and so does he.

We love all of us together.

We write together. This is

not just an experience. No norm

involved. Love, touch, together

loving. Try it sometime I think

you’ll like it.

We are part of this

planet, father sky and mother earth


God bless.


No! No!

I write ... you can't

can ...

What! ... did you

who ... If you



... Speak ... I need

another. ... Where

... my love

Fill me ... You/Me





Alone ... If I could guess

I would not write.

Forget ... gone

who ... mystery

I am ... I am gone

who ... get together?

I am here

... But a dream ...

If you could write

this is real.

I will be ... release

Be with me here ... not tomorrow

why ... waiting

Be! ... Begin

quickening ... be

Fill these spaces


write one more line ... See

and ... Death ... Is real

catch me Death is


My life gone ... In

out ... lifting ... rising do

... I'm gone


How far must I go before

you love me. ... A peck on

... say good-bye

never leave


Have touch

... feel me I am


... together ... my ...

I have no my ...

Endings are real.

sweet endings be

be with me ... but what!


Love lasts sometimes.

I didn't ... love


I know ... I write.

... Lost. He knows

you no longer. Love is

sweet ... I miss

... In your arms

No more

... I am

be with me


I live no more

be with me

Run ... fear

Touch ... holds ... breath

Today is my

... If all the days ... came together

Him ... in you ... no more

peace. ... Let go of

your fear. Arise. He took

it down. I wonder.

... Make me your friend

never again. ... Survival

gain wonderment explain

you’re to me. Don't leave

I love you.

My love.

would you like ... me


Hold me never more I am

with you now ... Life return

I will grow. Earth soil

she is good. My ground sprout

anew. My life

... why did you love me

good bye ... you hold me no more

be with me no more ... because

I don't love you any more

Take a hint. You never saw

this happening ... I would live

beyond you. ... I am so

happy ... such a rarity

Of course you are not

with another.

I am alone

If I life to breathe with

you would I be with you ...

Sleep dream I

... what we could buy

would buy is. I want you

Love ... Because we

would not exist but

alone separate peace


Life is not perfect.

There is no perfect


There is so much

and yet so little

to learn.


What a command what an answer.

I wonder.

I write and I am.

Today and tomorrow

looking at the

world around me




Today and tomorrow

this day and into the next

I wonder.

And then you have

The people who


Why? I wonder.

All I want to do is

get sick and throw up!

Who am I?


Who is he?

Can you write? I would like

to see.


who am I?


Who is he?

Where have I gone?

I wonder.

Care to take a shot

of beer,


I don't know.

I called my girl

friend. One of

them, who didn't return

my call. Why?


So what! ... fuck.


To be consumed by whatever you are doing


And now there is a rift in

Our world

Through you today and tomorrow

This day today

Go on and keep growing

Peace here today

Tomorrow more

Everyday loving and growing

Affection grow deep

Sprout anew

In your heart

For him

He is a boy

Love him

His trust and

Yours we keep

Lightening flash

Thunder blow

Wind whistles

Under tow

Out towards

The sea

She waits

And woe

Glow on

Mast prick

The sky

Serpent under

Hull will

See my

Rudder steers

On course




Exchange Rate




Exchanging Peace




Exchange Time

To send

to take

to accept this

in your heart through





begin ... through me

Love take flight

List that which makes a statement




wasted / alive

lost / live

under / health

Remove hate, fear











Remove fear




Hard world

versus real

I am a sensual


Why chains

Breath is


It lets us

live together

I'm growing inside

If you don't loose

hang on

And the harder

I pushed the

more he came

Looking in


I could see

... [the sphere]






I know

Carry this torch

in you mind

high and strong

This just became my

communion with you. Let us live and grow


It began this way. I was thinking again

I think, will be, and may live throughout this life

Thinking endlessly my words flutter


Pain for fear


pain for life

You grabbed me

in your talons

and are pulling me

down. I like

it here death

Intersection / ing. Building tension

How do most stories begin

Study endings / verb tense

Key, lists, girl / woman

Man / boy

Man/ woman

Boy / girl



Where the heads meet

Removing bad seeds

Remembering old, past hates

People I hated

Knowing why

Removing the old past hates

Before they corrupt my soul

Hello, hello, fellow student

How are you today

What might you have to say

I wonder, today, a student

Where does your ship sail

Through the frick and fray

Flying bright colors daily

Yesterday, today, and tomorrow

When you reach the bay

Who will say

Hello fellow student

Where did you journey

Where did you land

Somewhere over the horizon

In beach sand

Tall, tan, and gorgeous

Palm trees overhead

Gently sweeping

Put you into sleep

On this great land

Do you dare go back into the sea

Somewhere over the horizon

A different land

I wonder

Learn grow

Need know






Just happened

Using myth [and attraction] for good

simplify myself

Why do we have turmoil

Inferior versus pure

Wait, watch, listen

What does it mean to enchant

Listen and learn

She said to me once to listen and learn












But somehow I had so much

work to do, and I haven't

stopped working

You must write about what is

real and not lie about it

But I do rewrite and

through rewriting changes

are made

An Illusion

play by the rules

And yet

god is agreeing

I do need help

It can go

right to "straight"

people and

tell them

I am here

They were probably very

fascinated and kept to simplicity

Until you have

something worthwhile

to agree


bring us up

into everything

they want

By not having

any desires

we find

a way up

Try to be open

For me

that is

the end

Peace, love, future

And now I feel well


Pain or pleasure

but a mishap

"Of course," he

would say.

But of course.

We cry when we are born

I can cry when I am with you

I am reborn

I once loved

I have not loved

I remarried

Who knows god

Who was god

I cannot find him in my heart

... Life is too short not to believe

I'm growing

You’re growing

Let's keep it this way

You need

to learn

it backwards

How do you

get over


Choose to teach


"In that room

I could feel again."

To be read

over and over

again till you look

at me and I can feel

you in my heart

Hold this

in your fingers

and touch your heart

touch me


and when

the time

is ready

the dam

will break

tears flowing





We are all our

Own trouble

... [Listen to the time]

I have to work

to temper my soul

You are beautiful

It takes

so much standing near

I want to touch then

relax. You’re too close

I never want you

to go away

You blend in so well

Share this space

with me

You are here and I

am free.


Why are the people separate

Do they care

Yes Father I believe they do

Go and find out why

Because if it was easy

it wouldn't be easy


He expends [expands] our bounds

I'm saying ok. Think

Thinking and learning

Don't let yourself be let down

Heal: to repair

Does doing what you do

make you happy

Think healer

this is flesh and blood my heart

is beating

To come from somewhere else

is life

Did I just grab onto


A journey with heart

The power to learn

But since I can't do that

what will I do

The power to distill

By not being

allowed to do something

we do certain


To make something for

each individual

No I don't stop


Its whatever

you make out of it

To share with his friends everything he has done

Even though I am making the right choices, others can remember

I am alive

I think

I write

Anything that flows, I wonder

This is life

I can hate. That only deals with corruption. This deals with life and love

And the more I think the more I love

I am making something constructive out of everything I do

I have learned more. Thank you

Can I write a story about life, love, and people? Why return to the past

Think about us. Think about me. Think about life. Think I love you

What beautiful

bountiful lips

are these

I here

from you

to me

my lady

What beautiful

bountiful words

are these

I here

from you're lips

to mine

I've done a lot of thinking far into life, fast

I'm watching a car race

Pink, what an interesting color

He's wearing it and so is she

But the man was quivering and his knees shook

Guilt versus integrity, he stood before a woman

It's a mind journey: relating to itself or an object of an action

Recollection, memory: travel from one location to another

I'm listening and my keyboard can hear me type

Evil needs a shell. Evil finds an opening roosting on minds grown fallow. Sucking happily, transmuting life, feeding slowly evil fills the host till its heart stops beating.

The universe is vast and you are a reflection of the universe. You have room for every being you encounter.

Imagination is real. Creating you believe. Pluck one string here another resonates close by. People walk afraid of change. Death speaks inviting you to take a drag, walk step by step.

"Describe love?" Wada asks.

"Tender feelings we express to one another," The smart girl to Jake's right says.

"A fierce, passionate, rapturous, emotional moment," Jake chimes in.

Streets flow with want and need. Filth trickles into your brain. Coins drop for a fare. Bills trade hands. A cop turns his head. Scum shoots through body and mind tricked into wanting something that kills. Youth stops.

"How do you kill?" Jake asks.

"Most people do not have the skill to bring it off successfully. When we war, we damage ourselves. Finding love we make ourselves whole."

Wake up to what you need to be. Seeking the fabric of our universe takes time. Who holds the key too your heart?

Allowing your mind to work holistically everyone is a teacher. With life changing you always have something to learn. There is no such thing as being inflexible. Energy flows, reality and fantasy exist together.

Getting help from friends remove anger, disease and unfinished fantasies. Your mind flows with multitude of time, sometimes here other times in a different land with her. Imagination uses energy. Imagination is real. Love gives you power.

Underlying reality is imaginary reality. Your mind connects the two. Most people think imagination is daydreaming. Developing imaginary reality helps. You create and learn from what you follow. Make your dreams real. Interact with people and work things out. Get answers. With different views of humanity and different views of mind unravel the meaning of life versus making it tighter. Faith works. Your biggest debt to humanity is being human. When put between a rock and a hard place smile. Opening doors leads to understanding the universe breathing life into the world creating what others dare not see.

Always look for the best regards that way you can keep your head above water. If you go in the opposite direction expect ruin.

Light cuts through darkness. Love enters our hearts.

Forgive. Make amends. Finding the lesson can take a lifetime or be done in the blink of an eye. Ready to die proceed with love. What can possibly harm you? Remember to learn. This is an ever-going process; it takes two people to have an argument.

"Can I argue with myself?"

"No, but you can make yourself whole."

You cannot change the other person you can only help them see. By disagreeing with someone you attach yourself to him or her.

Zen: reaches enlightenment through doing.

Enlightenment: freedom from desire.

Shaman: a go-between the physical and spiritual.

Communicate: showing feelings so they are understood, providing access too.

"Everything is connected."

"Only one statement?"

"That is all I need to say."

"Couldn't you come up with something more original?"


With that, our conversation ended. I went to my bed my father went to his. By night we slept by day we argued. That would end some day he promised.

War came. No one noticed the harbingers of change. By then it was time to enlist. The reasons were simple. One nation-state lead by a particularly charismatic leader came up with a plan to acquire more land for itself. Its leader had a tool, 2.5 billion mouths to feed. We had our weapons too.

The boss yelled, screamed, ranted and raved. I stood at ease. Taking care of me everyday is a game. Life is made of layers. Keep feeding yourself even under adversity. It may not be adding but subtracting. Find balance in this world to reach fulfillment.

Looking for success he stepped out of the norm walking out of step from some.

Being happy attracts happy individuals. Not being happy alienates you. Unhappy people are usually involved in a struggle for power. Happy people seek beauty in everything, even the unhappy ones. Live comfortably in this world. Everyone has a front just like the vast corporations of the world; we all carry underlying desires.

We create our lives from natural laws. Nothing we do can break these laws.

That is the world; it is your job to survive. Rules help you win. Rules help you play. Rules give form and structure. Others write their own rules in one reality to pull strings. Write your own rules and pull some strings of your own. There is more than one reality; let imagination open the door.

People have complained about the need to get back to nature. We are nature.

Fearful people stick together spreading fear. Happy strength is stronger. It is done out of willingness not out of fear; the people were no longer pacified easily.

Make the world a game it hurts less. Do not take what others say too seriously. Take reality and add flavor to it. Forgive. Absolutes hold you back.

Power to see each person from that stance everything you take in separates you; you become splintered. Pushing forward into something, you do not know what and why, only that you are driven. What about this compulsion, what is driving us? Write honestly, that will help.

Stepping through the door events start unfolding with a new positive attitude. Look inside helping people. Review every day. Start every morning with a fresh air. Embrace honesty and remove hate. Doing, not pushing, keeping your hands off people and getting results.

Reaching inside the patient's mind this doctor had the tools to heal.

Body, mind and spirit are all connected. Seeing inside others to help us, connecting with everyone, letting the mind surface with answers the mind works holistically using everything correctly.

They were only trying to help. It's good to have a leader, but get to know you first.

This was one smart doctor. All it took was getting the patient to consider looking in a new direction opening doors and letting them walk through.

Creating new and valuable touchstones, war and mental health based on reality, it took awhile for him to open his eyes. He was welcome in making connections.

Disease replaces ease when something is unbalanced. Restoring that balance was her job.

He spoke of what hadn't been; yet anytime you moved on that action you could not change anything. Imagine seeing your destiny and not being able to change it.

Nature fills a void.

Mining for answers create something strong connecting with something good. Open your eyes. Walk softly, once we were together.

Something tried to keep moving him towards death. He chose life.

Cowards push things away. Warriors embrace them. A coward externalizes problems; they are not his problems. The warrior takes responsibility.

Senses return. Acting honestly sets you free. The centered person walks freely treating others with respect and love. Not manipulating let people find their own path. Be the one that helps. Bring good on the planet carrying the word selflessly. Meditate everyday on your way. Walk into the kingdom step by step opening the road so others may follow. Find love. Express joy. Find peace and rest. Everyday find the wellspring you have inside picturing imagination, love and peace.

You can usually learn something from the person you do not like. Looking at everything with an open mind remember past feelings, wishes do come true. Imaginary characters have real effects. Once you know the error of your ways you cannot repeat them. That does not mean you cannot recruit others to do your dirty work before finally realizing the truth.

Finding your happy place listen to your drum. Moving a thread through cloth, up down up down. Only through love can you do this.

Opening shed light on humanity. Love with feelings. To the pure, all things are pure.

You will not find happiness in a can. We are all part of the planet. What is the planet part of?

Look into the other person finding similarities. When given a hard time learn. Find a way to love the ones you dislike. Because everything is powerful and building and there is decay and rebirth. Find my happy place everyday and every night.

These kids are warriors, fluffy beginnings, give them back their power. Rich man poor man, creative power it's called blending.

Energy flow affects everything. Everything has energy and it's all moving. Electronics, your nervous system, the air we breathe, water we drink, day and night. Even a rock has energy; pushing on the ground it has found its place. Nothing is static. Change is constant.

War comes and goes. Road rage flares and disappears. Beatings occur. Children are raped, and we are here trying to find our center or destroy it. Who's in charge? What are we thinking? Individual groups, individuals, planet as a whole, inertia, who do you believe? What do you aspire too?

The balance of telling the truth makes you strong. Balance requires we attend to everything. No half-truths. You will do what is right. Do not make plans. We are plastic. This is how change takes place.

The rock pushes on the sand. The wave comes and goes. The rock will dissolve and reappear again.

Lead people. Be one of them. Join with everyone. Keep your center pure. Have happy feeling for everyone. Heal the universe. There is no one-way. We are all branches on the same tree. We are all born on the same planet.

When the dream is still there I ask questions gaining insight into events. Have dreams left you questioning? Separate fiction from reality. Fiction is ninety percent air. Make fiction read like fact.

Razor blades fly through the hall.

Grasping at pieces of reality your mind turns to dust.

Engineers ignore. Corporate power does not exist.

Controlling yourself sets you free. People sell themselves to others in a naive and greedy way out.

A pond fueled on an imaginary planet out of reach. More perish. I wandered, existence depending on me.

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