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Molten Eternities


Short poems by Sanam














Dedicated to my little man

Arjun’

















Don’t love with borrowed poems


Poetry is a half-thrill,

like all those things that are rehearsed,

and, chiseled into a glorious perfection.


So, if you were to fall in love,

for the very first time,

let it not be in the shadow,

of a borrowed verse.


Set yourself ablaze, and run

through the dense woods.

And when you are done with it,

look back at and pluck the verses

from your own scars.


The words may be half-burnt, perhaps,

from the ordeal,

yet,

they would speak of a love

that is familiar.


A love that you would’ve endured..


Conversations


The best conversations I make

are with my seven year old son.


Each time we chat,

I add a bit of a meaning to his

inquisitive little world,

and,

he lends a pinch of innocence

to

my all grown up world...

For you


There are days when this world,

overwhelms me.

Shadows defy sunlit afternoons, as

they encroach every bit

of my skin.


Unsure fingers turn fidgety,

as do my anxious knees.

My fretful heart, too, skips its

rhythm, drenched in concern.


Then, you appear,

from the far corner of the street,

and wave to me.


And every bit of me, somehow,

falls into place...





A second chance


One day, when I run out of the ledge,

I will pause for a moment, and

look back.


Just to make sure that a sunset

is keeping you warm.

The goodbye too,

will be a mere whisper,

left on the ripples of a warm breeze.


Then, I will have to

jump off ‘time’

into the awaiting chasms of

an eternity.


A second chance perhaps,

to love you again,

in some other universe..








Time’

(..and again)


The night curls inwards, and,

spits out a dawn.


The sun melts away the day, and,

a dusk is born.


That is all there is to 'time'








Moments are just like people


Moments, are just like people.


A few friendly ones always stick around,

eager, to lend a cheer.


Some others, mere acquaintances,

pass us by with an inglorious indifference.

Unworthy of being remembered again. Ever.


Then, there are the spiteful ones.

The foes.

Leaping out at us from the wilderness

in our spines.

Reminding us of the scars that exist,

on our skins, and,

why they won’t heal,


anytime soon...





Superstition


Love, too, is superstitious.


It is known to have tied

several wishful pledges on to

dying stars..







You can’t have all of it


That night,

time trickled down on me.

Shy moments,

pricking my skin, one drop at a time.


Indulged, I reached out for it,

arms stretched.

Hoping to hold it in an embrace.


It sprinkled down on me,

a bit longer, then,

withdrew.

And, moved on.


You cannot have all of me. It said...





My beating heart


Often, when you hold my hand, and

walk besides me,

along the ocean shore,

I wonder who’s the loudest.


The raging ocean, or,

my beating heart..





Her eyes


Often when I am adrift,

thinking about her.

My words sneak out for a wander,

to the far flung reaches of the cosmos.

Exploring distant worlds,

hopeful of finding shimmering stardust,

befitting,

the wizardry of her eyes..






Sandcastles


Often, on sleepless summer nights,

I take a stroll,

along the drowsy pier.


Often, I find the ornate moonshine,

and the seduced ocean,

wrapped up in a clandestine romance.


Shimmering, silver streaks of moonlight,

riding the polite waves,

all the way to the sandy shore.


As if, to light up the crumbling sandcastles,

abandoned by the days..




Of love


Time is stubborn.

It loathes footmarks left across its chest,

by carefree travellers.

Footprints, annoy time.


So come, hold my hand.

Let's tread all over 'Time'.

Denting it a bit.

It ought to know,

that love is obstinate too.


That love seldom cared,

to look back at those footprints,

it had left behind,

on that wet sand..





Loose ends


The thing about loose ends is that

they shrivel and curl with time.


Tying themselves up

in knots..




Lifetimes


Days, like spent candles,

spill into molten evenings.

Only, for callous nights to take over,

and freeze the twinkling twilights,

into a monotonous black.


The nights, too, are short-lived,

burnt down, by a furious sun.

Lifetimes will pile up,

one year after another.


You and I, will run out of time too.

Time, that never ticked.


Time, that always stood still..




Riding a rainbow home


Often, afloat an airplane,

when I see them from

the other side I am tempted,

to step out and walk over those clouds.


Joyfully hopping from

one to the other.

Then, as I edge

closer to horizon, and,

I run out of clouds,

I hope to ride

a friendly rainbow, and get

home by sun down..



The busker


He played on.


Late into the cold night.

There wasn't an audience,

for him to impress, in that lonely subway.


Just the odd sympathetic passerby,

and, the infrequent chime,

of a solitary coin,

hitting his guitar cover.



Wilderness


Don't be fooled,

by the flesh and bones that make us.


For you and I,

are riddled with wilderness.


Each time, I utter a word,

I can hear this wilderness within me,

whistling, and echoing,

through the throbbing gorges,

that hide beneath my skin..



Memories


Time happens to all of us

in fragments.

Big and tiny.


It does so,

for you and I can hold on to,

the fragments,

that had mattered the most to us..





Time Zones


I have tied a message,

to a half-spent evening, and,

hurled it towards you.


Untie it,

as the evening goes past you.


And whisper one back to me,

on the other half of it...



The city streets


Each morning, I see countless dreams,

walk the city streets.


Half-etched, half-fulfilled

they toil all day, chiseling away,

on destiny and time.


Some days, time runs out, and,

on others, destiny.


So they all wake up the next morning,

to walk those city streets,

all over again..




Molten eternities


Molten eternities, often, escaped,

the frozen recesses of the cosmos,

only, to be broken down,

into throbbing moments,

sprinting through vanishing years,

measured by lifetimes.


Time,

the double paced villain...



Locks tied on city bridges


Through the long winter nights,

and the harsh summer noons,

the burdened locks, dangled on...


Guarding the fleeting pledges for lovers,

who seldom returned...







Worries


Then, in the middle of our conversation,

I feel her fingers gently twine around mine,

as she draws close and,

rests her head on my shoulders.


And just like the setting sun in the distance,

all my worries,

take a plunge too..






Letters


On Saturday noons, as you take a nap,

I sometimes browse through,

the letters that you wrote me.

Years ago.


They talk of sunsets, that belong,

to you and I.

Just, you and I.


And often,

when I finish reading them,

I lie on my side, and, look at you,

sleeping next to me.


Unaware, and lost in a dream,

you assure me yet again,

that,

a sunset awaits you and I.


Just you and I..



Strangers


There will come a day,

when you and I

will wake up from this earth.


Only to be strangers once again,

on the other side..



Of perfect love


Love is just a

half-uttered promise, and,

a leap of faith.


It was never meant to be perfect..







Two decades


And then she appears,

from around the far corner.

Rushes past the people walking by.

Spots me from a distance,

waiting for her.


Waves to me and seals it with a smile.

Two decades, after I first met her,

she continues to find ways,

for me to fall for her..





Growing old


Each evening, at tea time,

the tremble in their ageing fingers,

made their tea cups rattle

against the saucers.


They had finally,

grown old together..







Vows


A sunlit winter’s morning awaits

us in a few years from now.


Newspaper in hand, I will

fumble through my pockets,

trying to spot my reading glasses.


The radio will play a song.

Our favorite one.


Sitting besides me, you will hum along.

Your cup of tea, would outlast the song.


Our love, too, would outlast those vows.

For the only promise that ever mattered,

was

to grow old together..




Stars


Many years ago,

you held my hand,

and together, we claimed,

a few stars in the night sky.


Ever since, there has existed

a constellation.


That belongs to you and I..









Those unsuitable words


One day, I shall write a tale

using those words

that never made it to my poems.


Those crossed out nobodies

bereft of glory, and rhyme

left hopelessly clinging

to crumbling pages stacked away


in a dust sprinkled attic..




Truth or dare


When we are done with the wine,

let's spin that bottle,

for the truth may reveal itself,

if dared.


And if our silences defeat us, again,

lets shackle the unsaid,

in the cursed bottle, and,

throw it away

into the darn’ d ocean..







Heartbeats


We will meet again, I promise,

in another world, far away from this one.


A world where time will stand still,

for you and I,

and unlike this lifetime,

we will not run out of heartbeats..



Winter


A dense winter fog shrouds the

jungle. In it, trees stand tall.

Their shredded barks

smeared with tacky goblets of pain

that shrivel and stick

to the aching trunks.

Pricked by the winter


the trees are hurting, yet

they remain silent.

Spineless foliage from the neighbourhood,

unwanted and unrequited,

crawls up the ailing trees,

leering and molesting them before

curling itself into a noose. Strangling and choking,

the trees. Those trees are hurting, yet

they remain silent.


The fog doesn’t relent , the wind

sharpens its edges. Howling

through the columns callously

ripping apart unhealed scabs off those

pain infested trees.


The trees bleed, yet again.

Their agony curdling into new goblets

that run down like teardrops,

along the bruised limbs of

a defiant jungle.


The trees are hurting,

yet they remain silent.

For they know that winter shall pass.


It always does..








Evenings


I adore evenings.

For they make wonderful companions.

Keen listeners, they seldom,

interrupt my silences.


Like a caring friend,

they tame the rowdy ocean too,

if it bothers me the slightest,

with its roars and rants.


Then, as the night takes over,

they whisper a soft goodbye,

and quietly melt away with the

vanishing sun...







Sunsets


Sunsets, have a charm about them.

They squeeze the noise,

out of dizzy moments.


Sedate them with lullabies,

and sprinkle them,

along the ocean shore,

for you and I to tread.


Then, as the soggy sand

shrivels into our footprints, the

timid waves rush up, and caress away,

any clinging burdens, off our feet.


And that's all that 'love' ever needed.







Poems


From the other side of the night,

there was a knock.


One after the other, they,

rattled the tin roof,

as if to check,

if the night had fallen asleep.


They were rebels, perhaps,

intent on quashing the night's decorum,

and, it's silence too.


But, in their splatter that night,

the insomniac, found a lullaby.

The lonely, a conversation.

And the poet, a poem..




The night sky is a lie


Suicidal stars, imploding under

duress for they have lived

way too long.


Distracted galaxies

swerving into one another with a

vengeance.


Columns of orphaned

stardust being spewed out in fury,

over dizzying distances.


The night sky is a violent expanse, and

it has you and I fooled.


For often on quiet nights,

we seek our peace in it..



Horizons


Night skies do not have horizons,

For darkness has no shades to it.


Yet, curious stars,

searching for a horizon on the far side,

tread several miles,

each night.


Only to perish into a sunrise..





Winter evenings


Lonesome wintery evenings, often,

echo through the fading impressions,

of hands,

that remain etched

across frozen, fogged up windows,

long after they have left the room..





Night skies


Tonight’s night sky is in fact

a twinkle from millions of years ago.


And isn’t it fascinating to know, that,

in a few eternities from now,

on a warm summer’s night,

some young boy may look at the night sky,

that I was meant to look at tonight..










Summer nights


These starry summer nights,

often, take me back to a boyhood,

when a handful of young dreams,

and the magic in your eyes,

marked the extent of my universe..









Dawn


On the far side, erupted,

the first streak of dawn.

And, in a few rushed moments,

the countless stars ended their vigil.

Extinguished, one at a time, and,

compelled to seek refuge until nightfall..



Of Nights


The night, too, had its acquaintances.

A few scheming crooks,

a handful of distracted wanderers, and,

some dreamy insomniacs.


Often, though, the night had,

overheard the days,

gossiping about a bustling planet,

rampant with noise, and life.


Yet, each time, the night

took over,

a drowsy earth, treated it to,

lonesome, half-lit streets,

silent dwellings, and

a snoring mankind..




Anchors


On a sunlit afternoon,

the boats decided to romance the wind.

As they gently swerved to the

flirtatious gusts, they tugged,

on the unsuspecting anchors holding them back.


Blinded by a love for the ocean,

those boats pulled, and nudged on those anchors,

hoping to break-free.


The scarred anchors though, did not

relent, as they held back the smitten boats.


For they knew, that the ones

they had let go in the past,

seldom returned,

from the folds of that treacherous ocean..




That Coffee shop


It was past midnight.

The world had fallen silent.

Yet, as I went past it,

I was drawn to it.

An exhausted coffee shop, in a deep dream.


Much like the brews it served all day,

that sleeping coffee shop’s loneliness, too,

had an aroma to it..




The birth of a poem


Suddenly, you feel a niggle inside you.


A caged sense of unease thumping

erratically behind the ribs.


You try and ignore it. It lingers on,

refusing to go away.

Plunging itself into the throbbing veins beneath the skin.


It swims upstream in furious protest.

Rattles the sturdy insides of your skull.

Gags you, tying up the tongue

in tiny knots.


Yet, seeks a voice.

An outlet.


Consumed by this rage, you scribble

some breathless words,

across blank pages.


And so, a poem is born..






That homeless person on the street


On a wintery evening,

I stood there,

watching destinies go past each other.


The ones draped in finest wool,

cheerfully, strolled the city streets.

Indulging in warm coffees, and,

love drenched chats.


Tucked away in a dark corner,

was another destiny too.

A homeless one.


Shredded and lonesome.

Trying to shiver itself to sleep.





Silences


Often, I try and puncture,

the silences, that befriend me.


For I know,

their poise and tranquility,

is a mere seduction.


Once, turned inside out,

these silences too, are ingloriously flawed,

like you and I.


Infested with demons,

and raging with anguish..


Trains


Often, as they rested on sunlit noons,

the curious platforms would ask,

the train carriages where they'd been.


Nomads, the carriages would seldom disappoint,

for they had tales to tell,

of places they had been to.


Spring splashed meadows,

rain drenched woods, frozen pastures,

and,

autumn clad wildernesses..





Of rainy days


There is a charm

about looking out through

rain-soaked windows.


Doing so, often, comforts

aching grown-ups,

bruised by destinies and toils.


If only they were brave enough,

to step out once in a while,

letting the rain-drops drench them,

the grown-ups

would've felt healed..





Raindrops


Disowned by the fleeting clouds,

discarded raindrops,

befriended the branches of a helpful tree.


Their refuge for the night.

Unaware, that a deceitful sun,

awaited on the other side,

eager, to consume them, and,


hand them back,

to yet another passing cloud..





Drizzles


As I walked through the soggy night,

raindrops, from the hushed drizzle,

splattered my face.


Some slipped down, instantly,

scooting across my cheeks.

Some, plunged into an abyss,

swallowed, by my shivering lips.


Some, entangled in my eyelashes,

exploded with a vengeance,

each time I blinked, as if,

to avenge their fallen mates





Summer rains


Sneaky clouds, no longer able to

conceal their stealth, spill

the loot.


And as the sun baked soil,

wraps itself in the summer rain,

water stolen from a sleeping ocean

is reclaimed.


One drop at a time...




The overzealous raindrop


I listened intently into the dark night.


Much like the words in a poem,

the raindrops too had a melody

in their fall.


And then every so often, fell an

overzealous drop,

clueless,

not in sync with rest,

shattering the entire symphony..



Firefly


In that pinch of darkness, that,

he held between his folded hands,

hid a firefly as well.


Each time, it let out a flash,

he giggled, the little boy.


Unaware, that the world will soon,

want him to grow up..




Colours


From the haunting nights,

painted in deepest black.


Of, from the blood that was deep red,

when it was first shed, and,

then turned purple,

as it curdled.


Or, from the white shrouds of,

wailing widows.


Not all kids, learnt their colours,

from rainbows..








The orphan


Growing up in an orphanage

she missed out on a lot of things.


Throwing a tantrum,

was just one of them..





The masterpiece


He held a chalk and sketched away

all over the wooden deck,

the little boy.


Aimless lines, meandering and

looping over each other

was all that he drew.


And when he was done

he stood back,

looked at his work, and giggled.

Elated with his creation,

he moved on to his next adventure.


And here I was, fearful of appraisals,

crossing out misfit words,

desperate,

to write that 'perfect' poem..



Notepads


I like to write on notepads.


For they keep me grounded.


Devoid of a ‘backspace’, they

often keep a score

of the number of times it took me,


to get it right..






The blinking game


Long into the night, we kept

staring into each other’s eyes.


The night sky and I.


We both held a stubborn silence,

within us

that refused to

blink..



There are no answers


We seek comfort, not answers.

For there are no answers.


Wisdom is just make belief.

Educated guesses, derived with a bow

stretched a tad too long.


Fallacies, like beads, stitched up

in a thread of logic and reason.

All designed to explain the unventured

other side.


Countless explanations offered.


And you and I choose the one,

that comforts us the most....




Solitude


Often when the night turns

unkind

I turn to the trusted window in my room.


For each time I leave it ajar,

distracted strands of silvery moonshine

come rushing in, eager,

to converse with my

sleepless solitude..




Dreams


There's a fine line, that,

separates the dream, from the journey.

Dreams fetch thrills.

Journeys remain stale.


And if the two were to merge,

you will never again sense the thrill,

of turning the clouds inside out, and,

looking at a thunderstorm,

from the other side.


Yes,

if the two were to merge,

the journey will eat up the dream,

and, you will merely hop, between,

days, and places..




Perspectives


After a certain age,

destinations define us.

Yet, today as I travelled with my son,

I put my forehead

against the train window.

Just like my seven year old companion.


As we peeked through the glass,

another train went zipping past.

It caught us by surprise.

Startled, we looked at each other.

Then giggled, and went back to,

hearing the melody,

of the train wheels, scooting over

tightly stitched rail tracks.


Age never abandoned childhoods,

perspectives did..




Destinations


Moments, in a brisk sprint.

Lifespans, on a slow crawl.

Desires, on crossroads.


Journeys, beget journeys.


Destinations, mere arbitrary stopovers..





Goosebumps


Much like the stars in the night sky,

they erupt too,

out of the porous bones.

Pop. Pop. Pop.


One after the other, they take over

every inch of unclaimed flesh, and,

unleash a chill that runs,

all the way up the spine, then,

explodes in between the eyes, and perishes.

Like those shooting stars,

in the night sky.


Much like a shooting star too,

you try and hold on to them, and

to the thrill they inject into your skin.


But like it is with shooting stars,

all you manage to do,

is to make a wish,

before they extinguish..




Romance


Smitten by a romance,

shrewd, moonlit nights,

melted in dew drops at dawn,

and, clung on to unsuspecting rose petals

hopeful

of meeting,

the forbidden days..




Afterlife


In its afterlife,

the discarded quill

took flight, once again.


This time,

through the words of a poet..








The ocean shore


Then, as the fleeting waves recede,

the love drenched sand, too,

shrivels and shrinks.


Bleached by the sun,

the wet blots on the shore, too,

disappear.


Parched, barren grains remain, as,

sand becomes sand, again.


Just like you and I,

when we'll be gone..


Of storms


I swallowed a mouthful of the storm,

that raged outside.

It tasted like the eucalyptus leaves,

that it had ripped apart.


Then, as I chewed it a bit more,

it lost its rage.

Reduced to a mere breath within me.

A humble, tamed breath..




Of Forevers

We are all shackled in eternities.

You, and I.


One day, when we shall all perish,

along with the fanciful worlds we live in,

bits of us shall,

continue to live on.


Etched forever, on a pinch

of unclaimed stardust, you and I,

will forever exist,

somewhere in the silent recesses,

of this universe..



I shattered the darn’d sky


The sky managed to shake off

the clouds,

as it turned into the deepest shade

of blue, today.


Flawless and poised,

it stood above me,

as if to mock my burdened mind.


Sitting by the lakeside,

I picked up a pebble in disgust,

And hurled it at the still lake.


Shattering the arrogant sky,

Into trembling ripples..







The boy who once left home


One day,

Every dream that he had ever held,

Collapsed inwards.


As dusk loomed,

He found himself stranded,

Amongst a towering wilderness.


He pasued, for a moment,

Turned around to look back.

His footsteps had perished, so did

The dusty trail he thought he had etched.

The trees had a charm about them,

but, were unfamiliar.

Much like the winter’s night, that lurked.


Home, remained several sunsets away..




Nostalgia


Nostalgia has a fragrance to it.


If you were to hold it close enough,

it will smell of warm twilights, or,

snow drenched winter nights, or,

soothing summer rains.


Or perhaps, of a love,

that was not meant to last,

forever.


And if you ever chose to douse yourself

in nostalgia,

you may end up smelling like those dusty attics,

that hold on to crumbling suitcases,

which hadn’t been visited

in a long time..



Words


One day, when you and I,

grow old,

I shall instruct my words to

revisit and reconstruct,

our lifetimes.


They know the craft of

turning back time..


About the Author:


Sanam Sharma


Email: Sanam.asr@gmail.com


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