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Perfect Dream:

A Collection of Original Poems





By Edwin Betancourt























Stab the body and it heals, but injure the heart and the wound lasts a lifetime.”
Mineko Iwasaki

















Contents

* ”Crown of Thorns”

* “Grounded”

* “Aidenn”

* “Find A Way”

* “Black Widow”

* “Get Out Of My Head!”

* “High- Low”

* “Time Kills”

* “Cupid Ate My Heart”

* “Silent Screams”

* “Cinderella”

* “Swan Song”

* “Toxicity!”

* “Echoing”

* “In My Dream”

* “Perfect Dream”

* “Mayday!”

* “Drowning

* “Tell Me!”

* “Break You Down”

* “Burning Paradise”

* “Find A Way”

* “End of Me”

Crown Of Thorns

Do we all look like ants from your pedestal?

You’re feeding on their attention and yet are you full?

I cannot help but observe how they all treat you,

I wonder if they see a wolf as I do.

You’re taking credit for words that are not even yours,

I’m the man behind the scenes but you show me no remorse.

You’re performing my words with no emotions at all,

I won’t be front news so I’ll sit back and watch you fall.

I should have seen the ways you would use me,

I was in love but you ripped my heart out.

Now I feel weak and I have no words to speak; you took them too!

I’m just living in your shadow.

Where are the stones to throw at me?

Because I see what you really are,

A False Prophet, you won’t stop it.

You’re no Messiah.

But you don’t see the web you weave,

It will trap you and then they’ll see you, naked and torn.

Because I won’t wear your Crown of Thorns.

I let you play Jesus while I played Judas,

You sat back and watched, as I became something from the dust.

When the opportunity arose you took all the credit,

One day each of your followers will unveil the bullshit.

Revenge was always something I suppressed into my core,

Sit back and wait, until you find out what I have in store.

Don’t worry I’m not going to look for you with a bat,

By the grace of God, you know I’m better than that!

Where are the stones to throw at me?

Because I see what you really are,

A False Prophet, you won’t stop it.

You’re no Messiah.

But you don’t see the web you weave,

It will trap you and then they’ll see you, naked and torn.

Because I won’t wear your Crown of Thorns.

~

Grounded

High above the clouds I longed to be,

So high up that I couldn’t be seen.

All your words created no sound,

Your silence kept me on the ground.

Why would you dim my shine?

Why is there no love I find?

Why do I ask this of you?

Why should I start loving you?

It’s quite clear that I’m losing all my grip,

I am trapped inside of this sinking ship.

Can we talk without your fallen shouts?

You can’t go on, you always had your doubts.

You clipped my wings so I couldn’t fly,

My heart is torn and I long to die.

Your chains of lies kept me oh so bound,

And I couldn’t fly off of this ground.

You never took me up that high,

All I wanted was to freaking fly!

Your chains of lies kept me tied up here,

Now that I’m gone, do you feel me, dear?

~







Aidenn

In the midnight hour, I am not alone,

There is something crawling deep in my bones.

It is watching me sleep and haunting my home,

There is no escaping from all these angry ghosts.

I can hear something knocking at my door,

Whispering voices call out for “Lenore”.

I can feel the Raven; it’s taking over my mind,

I can feel the Shadows, trying to cast out the light,

I can feel the Darkness trying hard to ease my pain,

I can feel them inside of me, making me insane.

I am trying so hard to go right back to sleep,

Someone tells me a secret I must keep.

I can hear something knocking at my door,

The Shadow dances and sings “Nevermore”.

I cannot see my Shadow anymore,

It is now a toy for sweet little Lenore.

~

Find A Way

Long lost words whisper, they welcome me back home.

Where have you been?” They asked. “It’s time to breathe again.”

I got so tired of just sitting here and waiting for you.

I know whatever I do; my heart will always be broken.

But I’ll find a way,

I will always find a way.

All my hurt echoes,

I’m in pain and no one knows.

I wear my smile so well,

I’m peaceful in this private Hell.

There’s no point in building Paradise because I’ve burnt it down,

I’ve been lost for so long I don’t think that I’ll ever be found.

But I’ll find a way,

I will always find a way.

~





Black Widow

It has been too long since you left this hole in our hearts,

Here in the dark where we laid, we could not find you.

All for a girl with poison drowning out her every word.

Was it worth all of the pain that you gave back to us?

Can you not see past her lies?

When will you wake up my dear?

You are no longer free,

You are trapped in her web of lies.

She is a Black Widow,

She will eat out your soul.

She poisoned your mind,

Now your death she’ll define.

Is this what you had in mind, when you left us behind?

Where is your pride that you lost when you had your fix?

You regret what you did, but we all know it is too late.

You are now cold and alone lying in your bed made from chestnut and pine.

There is your lovely bride; a desperate man she will again, soon find.

~





















Get Out Of My Head!

Stop! I need to breathe and get relief.

Somehow, it’s hard to do with you running inside of my mind.

I was in control until you barged inside.

You’re making this your home while living rent free.

There’s no room to think about anything else,

I can smell your cologne “Squatter” by Calvin Klein.

It’s like Déjà vu except it’s your ugly face staring back at me, call the doctors please!

Can I get back what you have taken?

If this is war then you won,

I just want my thoughts back home.

You’re controlling my every thought and it’s killing me softly,

So I beg you please; Get Out Of My Head!

Hydrotherapy is killing me,

I need anything to get rid of your looming scent.

Doctors cannot fix this crazy mess.

You are crawling deeper within the confines,

You’re scratching the walls and screaming inside me.

The echoes cut through my bitter soul and heart,

Can no one help me?

I’m here going crazy in my own damn mind!

Can I get back what you have taken?

If this is war then you won,

I just want my thoughts back home.

You’re controlling my every thought and it’s killing me softly,

So I beg you please… Get Out Of My Head!

~













High-Low

I see you staring, Baby doll, at me.

I feel you near me, You’re driving me crazy.

Why do you have me under your spell?

While you know I like it.

Don’t care if you’re playing a game, because I can play it the same.

I just want your dream inside me, with a new possibility.

Erasing all the stress I had, call the cops I want to be bad.

Lock me up; make me earn your key.

You see what you are doing to me?

High-Low, you got me High Low.

High-Low, you got us High Low.

If this is a dream, do not wake me.

I don’t want to lose this picture of us.

The night is young and small talk takes up time.

Let’s not use our words!

Tonight you’ll be a busy bee, trying your hardest to please me.

Looking like a real home dinger, by morning, you’ll lose your stinger.

Don’t say your name, I just don’t care, you had me here with just one stare.

So make your move if you will dare,

No matter what, we are still High-Low.

~















Time Kills

So you thought you would break my heart?

So you thought that I’d fall apart?

Yet my feet are still on the ground.

Baby you were just a sad phase.

There’s a whole big world out there,

And I refuse to spend it here.

You’re not the only one baby, just the only one stupid to stray.

Time Kills and I refuse to waste another second crying.

Don’t apologize I’m over it.

You should have known how all of this, would catch up to you one day.

Can’t you see how you can’t touch me?

I’m too busy flying so high, with these broken wings to the sky.

I am far beyond well rounded,

You know I am no longer grounded.

Time Kills and I refuse to waste another second crying.

Can’t you see I’m sick of trying?

I know I’ll find another way,

Life’s too short to cry for you.

Time Kills and I refuse to spend it thinking of you.

~

Cupid Ate My Heart

Emergency! Do you know what happened to me, I’ll tell you,

I have no way to love myself anymore.

I wasted my entire life just hating you and whining and now I find I’m dying on the floor.

Beware his deadly aim, he’s coming here for you,

Once you let him inside, there is no escaping.

Cupid ate my heart, he took it out my chest and devoured it whole,

Cupid ate my heart, I never had a chance to fight back.

So let me tell you about this thing called love,

It isn’t peachy keen baby.

I didn’t take my own advice, but it is too late for me.

I’m lying here,

I’m crying here,

I’m dying here!

There is no turning back when your heart is broken,

Don’t you understand how I’m trapped in limbo?

Cupid ate my heart; he took it out my chest and devoured it whole,

Cupid ate my heart, I never had a chance to fight back.

I’m so stupid,

Killed by Cupid.

~




Silent Screams

Shining Beams.

Shattered Dreams,

Nothing seems to stitch the seams.

Crimson Beams,

No Loyal Dreams,

The game of Life has no redeems.

Shining Beams,

Shattered Dreams,

Do you hear my Silent Screams?

~







Cinderella

Did you hear about Cinderella?

She wore rags for clothes and lived in the cellar.

One faithful night the Charmings were having a ball,

She made a wish on a star and her fairy Godmother she did call.

She partied until midnight and ran out leaving her glass slipper behind,

The Prince’s men took the shoe and made it their quest for that foot they will find.

Unfortunately, her stepmother found out the crazy odd truth,

That Cinderella escaped the house and she vowed that day Cinderella would rue.

Poor Stepmother had no idea that Cinderella was not sane,

That night the Stepmother closed her eyes to never awake again.

The Stepsisters were found, one headless and the other one burned,

It didn’t take long to see sweet Cinderella took a dark turn.

The story about a Fairy Godmother concocting a dress was a lie,

She broke into a local boutique; stole the dress and glass slippers, without batting an eye.

Poor thing imagined a happy ever after, married to the Prince with a bunch of babies,

But in reality, you see, Cinderella had Rabies.

Now she’s locked up for good, mugshot taken and prints,

No happily ever after for her, not even a Prince.

~




























Swan Song

Without a drug, I’m wide awake there’s no potion I can take,

That will get rid of this baggage, baggage of course meaning you.

I told myself I’m over it, yet we both know I’m full of it.

It just took long for me to see the real villain was me,

I hurt myself thinking of you, I’m always that selfless fool.

Yet I still gave you all the credit, all my teardrops spelt your name.

So let us press pause on this crazy train,

It’s getting derailed and we have nothing to gain.

I let you break my heart and now I’m not sane.

It’s a new day and I’m changing my way,

With your body gone your spirit remains.

These are the last words I’m wasting on you.

I blamed it all on that Asylum I had to build myself,

You may have locked the doors on me but I always held the key.

Instead of sinking on that ship I decided to swim back home.

You swam away like the shark you are, after you tore me apart.

Now I glare at my reflection, oh how I hate who I was.

With my new state of mind, you’re gone because these are my last words.

So let us press pause on this crazy train,

It’s getting derailed and we have nothing to gain.

I let you break my heart and now I’m not sane.

It’s a new day and I’m changing my way,

With your body gone your spirit remains.

These are the last words I’m wasting on you.

No need to ask for forgiveness we’re done,

You can’t forgive someone that doesn’t exist.

I’m forgetting your face and name so well, with this lovely Swan Song.

~













Toxicity

Your touch burns me.

Your words bruise me.

Your love is poison.

You are Toxic. I am Toxic.

Let go of my heart that you blackened,

It no longer bleeds and I am dying.

The lies are killing us again,

The love you gave is dying here in Toxicity.

You poisoned me with every kiss;

Our Paradise does not exist.

We are Toxic.

Let go of my heart that you blackened,

It no longer beats and I am crying.

Your lies are killing me again.

Let us find peace here in Toxicity…Please.

~

















Echoing

Nothing could have prepared us for this ending.

We have seen how it began we both know how it will end.

We held our breath so many times through the storm,

We could no longer fly because our wings were torn.

If you are looking for someone to take the blame, I will gladly take it, I will ease all your pain.

There were so many times that I faked loving you,

We cannot pick up the pieces there is just too many to mend.

I am moving on not giving up, I know that you are dying inside.

Do not call my name because I am long gone,

So all you will hear is your voice echoing.

I have been pondering this thought for so long,

I could not see you hurt yet I was hurting myself.

Forget all the grey clouds in the sky,

The sun will shine for you, that is something I truly believe.

There is no point in trying to stay here for you,

We both know it is a lie and what good will it do?

I hope you find the true love you have been seeking,

I am sorry it is not me; I know you will find it when I leave.

So many things were left unsaid, all those words echoed in the night,

Do not shed a tear for me; you know that I will be alright.

Do not call my name, please, let these tears dry,

I have to get out of here before a heart will die.

Right now, all I hear is my heart echoing…

Echoing,

Echoing,

Echoing

Echoing,

Echoing,

Echoing,

Echoing.





~











In My Dream

Do not think I know you,

Those eyes and crimson glow.

Your fangs are razor sharp,

My blood you do not want.

I’m not sure we’ll be alive after this hypnotic ride.

You are all I see, a beautiful creature deep inside.

You’re not like the rest, you’d rather be hated than hide,

In my dream.

So many of Hell’s children here,

They try to drown me in my tears.

But for some reason you are here,

And now I have nothing to fear.

You know about me,

The love you show me gives me light I need,

I hope we will be.

As the sun rises, I see why we’ll never be forever,

When the moon rises, I know you and I will be together.

~



Perfect Dream

Let’s forget about the problem,

It is not like we can solve ‘em.

All of my focus is on you,

And I love everything you do.

I’m alive when you look at me,

It’s like my flaws you do not see.

I will never complain my love.

I know you’re the one so true, my Perfect Dream.

I’m in your arms hearing you breathe,

Kiss me so I won’t have to leave.

When I am sad you make me smile,

Do not jump ship, let’s stay a while.

You whisper that you love me dear,

And that you’ll never leave me here.

You’re quick to get rid of my fear.

When you look me in the eyes though,

It’s like you’re looking through my soul.

I think you were made just for me.

Don’t count the days until our end,

Each second with you, I will spend,

You’re more than my love, you’re my friend.

I’m just happy that this won’t end.

I know you’re the one so true, my Perfect Dream.

-

-

Do you hear the monsters, they’re calling.

We’re stuck on this sinking ship stalling.

I see that the Kraken is coming,

You are quick in saving just yourself,

You took the last rescue boat, darling.

Is it true you’re saving just yourself?

It is hard to avoid the shipwreck,

It seems you are never caught thinking,

As you start to navigate I’m lost, I won’t cry out losing this battle.

Perfect Dream is just fiction to me.

I’m on this sinking ship all alone…drifting into eternal dreams.

~















Mayday!

I never saw it coming, the day you’d cheat.

And now that it has happened, I still can’t breathe.

Whatever happened to the man I used to know and used to love?

Clearly he’s gone and now I’m stuck with a broken and loathing shell.

I don’t understand how we managed to get this far and still our ship,

Hit the rocks hidden behind the fog and now we’re sinking.

Mayday! Mayday! I’m screaming out.

But the Ocean is rocking us back and forth, now we’re drowning.

Mayday! Mayday! I’ve given up.

There’s nothing left to fight for on this sinking ship anymore.

I chose not to see the signs, with foolish pride.

You were captivating me, with every ride.

We survived every storm, which came at us.

This ship cannot be repaired, just like the trust.

This sea wasn’t safe from the start.

You were tempted by the Siren’s song,

Even with her cold heart and hungry lust, she had strung you.

Now the Kraken swarms around what’s left of us,

He’s waiting to consume whoever drowns first and I refuse to waste my life away.

Mayday! Mayday!

When will we be free of this?

I’m tired of fighting and drowning again.

Not even Moses can help us,

So it’s time we finally embrace our ending.

~



























Drowning

Should I have imagined a new world for us both?

By the looks of it now, should have wished a new you.

Now I’m stuck on this sinking ship,

My heart races can you hear it?

Shattered my heart when you found it.

Remember I’m never grounded.

We hit the rocks hard, went straight through the fog,

I am Drowning.

There’s no life jacket, I’m done fighting it.

I am Drowning.

You are not in my dream,

Or in this dark blue sea.

You abandoned me here,

Crashed ‘cus you couldn’t steer.

I can blame you but it won’t work,

Insult you because you’re a jerk.

I can’t swim home I’m just so weak,

Won’t be long until my Angel speaks.

We hit the rocks hard, went straight through the fog,

I am Drowning.

There’s no life jacket, I’m done fighting it.

I am Drowning.

~

































Tell Me!

Here we go again, on this crazy hectic ride.

Don’t you know I am not the type to go run and hide?

Make your move make it count, before I let it all go.

While the world is spinning, I am not waiting for you.

Life is just too short for me to be on the side,

All of that bark from you and yet there is no bite,

If you want me, you better go about it all right.

Don’t need a hero, just someone willing to fight.

The world is at your feet tonight and I know it’s about time,

So tell me what is on your mind.

Tell me the truth, call it a lie, whatever tucks you in at night.

Tell me your name, start it from there.

Just Tell Me

What’s on your mind?

Just Tell Me

What will I find?

Just Tell Me

I’ll understand.

Just Tell Me

You’ll be my man.

I see the way you look at me, every chance that you would get,

Your heart races and you can’t seem to find the right words just yet.

This life is a rat race you gotta be the winner of it,

Forget Cinderella, you gotta make sure the armor fits.

Just Tell Me

What’s on your mind?

Just Tell Me

What will I find?

Just Tell Me

I’ll understand.

Just Tell Me

Come take my hand.

~











Break You Down

You should’ve believed the story that’s circulating on the street,

They had warned you and now you’ll see, that I’m going to break you down.

I can hear all the thoughts invading and living in your head,

You want me there on your bed.

But Baby doll we both know you’ll be dead.

My hips may be dancing in your dirty little mind,

Until you’ve come and then you’re done,

When dealing with me, you better run.

You thought that you could come over here and push me down?

You thought for once you’ll wear my crown?

But in your blood, you will drown.

The Darkness will burn so bright,

You will not survive this night.

I’m going to break you down,

Oh, I’m going to love breaking you down.

~





Burning Paradise

Do you know what you have done?

You poured gasoline on us,

I lit the match and then threw the flame straight to the ground.

I’m Burning Paradise,

I’m Burning Paradise.

There is nothing left to say,

There is no coming back babe.

You made your casket now go lie in it because I am done.

I’m Burning Paradise,

I’m Burning Paradise.

So many chances I gave you,

So many teardrops I’ve went through.

I’m Burning Paradise.

I’m Burning Paradise.

You played my heart in many games

I dance around the gentle flames,.

I’m Burning Paradise.

I’m Burning Paradise.

You told me you would be faithful,

Now you can be as the flames burn.

Do you know what you have done?

You poured gasoline on us,

I lit the match and then threw the flame straight to the ground.

I’m Burning Paradise,

I’m Burning Paradise.

~











End Of Me

Won’t be long ‘til I’m back at home,

Back to where I belong,

Back to writing sane words.

Right now, I see myself being happy.

How long will it last though? Will my happiness show?

I cannot even imagine what my life would have been like,

If I kept to myself and not even said a word to you,

But it hurts thinking about you now.

Won’t cry out no more I am through,

I am drowning thinking about you.

I know it sounds so foolish; I’m so used to lying.

Just do not let this be the End of Me.

I know I can’t erase the past,

But you will prove me wrong.

Do I get a chance to let go or to take my words back?

Or to fix my heart’s crack?

Need some time to focus on me,

So that’s why I won’t leave everything I’ve achieved.

I need some time to evaluate everything in my life,

Cus the Monster’s calling me and I know they won’t let me sleep tonight.

Won’t cry out no more I am through,

I am drowning thinking about you.

I know it sounds so foolish, I’m so used to lying.

Just do not let this be the End of Me.

~

























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