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A Song For Demeter




Lasa Limpin




Blue Monkeys Press



©2018 Lasa Limpin

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Sing Muses of the Goddess Demeter, mother of all. Hermes guide me. Pasaya be with me.


*


[I’ll learn to be quiet

Like birds in a box]


*


Demeter seems to be the goddess whose story is about someone else

She is the goddess who is self effacing

Who cares for children


But she is the grain

She is the grain

She is the earth

She is food


I don’t understand

She is a body


What she is matters more than who she is

Demeter is Demeter without giving

Without holding your baby


The embattled space of Demeter

Peace eludes me

Mother of all

And nothing


She gives

Life I breathe and waste

She gives the world

I walk on her

Step on her step over step

I ignore her


I can do no justice

When I speak


If the words are meaningless

A box to put a woman inside


She may

Be the trampoline for another’s

Leap


How is this fair?


Demeter

I wish not to feel


To see you

As All

I can only see

Earthly

Mothers

Hated for being

Mothers

Who put their children first

Honored

Disliked

Respected

Degraded


The truth of motherhood

Is it is the key

to the hatred of women

And I do feel the anger

I do

I do


Imagine a woman

Giving herself over

To the child


Losing

To the Mother


I feel anger

I feel anger

I can’t hide it

Unwilling


Demeter

Great mother

My highest

Respect

I can’t give honestly


I’d lie if I called you

Dearest


I have my own

Human mother

Who is Dearest

I won’t

Betray her

She lived in a society

That betrayed her

That betrays us

All your Daughters


I’d have nothing

If I tried to reach

For it all


Demeter

I know

my words don’t

Offend


I’ve made no grievous error

In writing down the truth

Of my heart

Motherhood

For me

is a killing twin


I could have easily

Stepped forward

Another of billions

Of Mothers

Lost

To the tragic

Endless

Cause

Of children


The hated bliss

Of caring for

A little

Time eating

Monster


*


Demeter

the flowers are

Your children


The ground

Gives

Life


What of life?


Demeter

I have not been

A bird in a box


This is no act

Of defiance


I would as soon expunge

a song

About motherhood


It’s a private question

How can I find you?

If you search for your Daughter?


*


Demeter

I feel

Wholly

Unholy

Unhappy


Speaking

In silence


I break

Personal

Taboos


You


I don’t feel

Safe

Or happy


Silent!

Don’t speak

Don’t wonder


The foundation

who I am


Don’t question

What breaks

Can’t be known


Demeter

I miss my mother


*


Why?

Why did you wander

When I waited

At home

for your return


It was all

A big misunderstanding

I didn’t run away


You ran


Come back

Why did you go?


You traveled the whole wide world searching for me

But I stood on Your doorstep

Unable to get in the house

I banged and banged

At the door

Others came running

You weren’t there

To let me in


You claim to be sad

But you’re gone

And here I sit

Alone

On the doorstep

Waiting to enter

Into your house


You never gave me a key

You never let me in

Without knocking

First


Demeter

You’ve left your daughter

Alone


Where did you go?


Demeter

we are here

the forgotten ones

you left behind

when you allowed

men to claim

their lonely seed

bore the world


Demeter

you left us

to the men


You abandoned us


You gave us

no home

no protection


Demeter

we are

waiting for you


Return from

wandering


Your daughters

are here

by your house

suffering


your Earth is dying


Demeter we wait

for your return

your daughters

are here


Still

Waiting for

Help


*


Demeter

Stop leaving

Stop going away


Demeter

Come back

Where is


Demeter

Mother

Come back


Demeter

Mother

Come back

Safety eludes me


Once as a baker

Once with mumps

One as an undertaker

Once with bumps



* Daughters of Demeter *


1. Golden Law

Daughter of Demeter

Sister of Akakallis

Bright daffodil

Khrysothemis


Bounty of the tamarisk tree

Sweet cake with honey


For the sacred rite

Of your mother

You walk in the retinue

Of Aphrodite


2. Despoine

Daughter of Demeter

Blessed Artemis hails

Bright secret

Shining in pure light

Hidden

I fall


3. Areion

Immortal child horse

Make me blessed


Despoine climbs

Your bare back

And with speed

Traverses Earth


4. Eubouleus son of Demeter

While the earth is ploughed


5. Ploutos

God of wealth

My teeth ache

To think of you


*


Hermes

How can I write this


*


Demeter

Loss and fear


I’m afraid

of the state I’m in


I look to a goddess

Of bounty


And wonder


My mother

is no other

Than the great goddess


*


Demeter

I gather grain

I pick trees

I give thanks

For every gift of my life


It is you who sustains


Divine Demeter

I listen

I hear

I know that you are near


You call to me

Rest rest

Feel rest and

Feel peace

Rest and find contentment


Dear child rest


The world will stay

As you see it


The land grows its share


Rest a while

Be at peace


*


My lovely goddess

You are Demeter

Sisters’ kindness

Complete

Family intact

Safety

Holds


*


Britomartis

flowers abound

flowers fall from the sky

You reach

Up up up

The fields around you

Are lovely

Green bright fields

Of open flowers

Below is a resting place


*


Goddess

Lovely

Wonderful

Everything

Demeter

We follow

Walk and feel better

At peace

We follow


We won’t wait

For your return

We follow


Come

Let’s cheer

In our darkest hour


As you give us comfort


Giving

Is your nature

Kind relief

Your sight


I watch You enter my house

And I feel

Perfect


If only

You could

Wondrous

Of heaven and earth


*


Demeter

The world needs

Demeter


The sky the vast

Everything all

Alone


Searching for

Her daughter


Demeter

I am your daughter


Demeter

We are here


Help us


Demeter

We are alive

We are the ones

Who die


We are the children who die


Demeter

We are your children who die


Demeter

Search for us

We die


Bring us back


Demeter

Children

We die


We fall to the ground

End


Search for us

Pull us up

From

Our roots


Demeter I hear


The ground shall not keep


I rise

go

walk with you

we search for

Persephone


Hecate

Holds the light


Hecate

Brings

The golden

Demeter


We die

we die again

We are

Children of light


Demeter’s hands

save

Her children


Her voice

sings

turning in the fire

we feed on

Ambrosia


Demeter brings her daughter

Up from earth


She knows—now grow



Demeter we follow

You search for Kore

We hunt down clues

And tell you where

We heard her last

Cry out


Demeter

We give you

Barley milk


We follow

Demeter

We give you

The willow

branch that reads time


The way to your daughter’s cave

The grieving in

The time before

All of that is gone

The child awakens

in your arms

free

Your heart

rejoices


Persephone

Is

Your daughter


She is the Goddess

Of the truth

of night

Of endless

Fallen

Dead

She is the truth of the winter women

She is us


She is everything

And she is coming again

She is Persephone

She rises

The great goddess of All

Persephone is the Sacred Child


The girl

Who grows

Up


She is the fire of Hades

The fire goes aloft into the air

She calls the cauldron on wings

She is Persephone Goddess of All


Your children are Her

Alone


Your Good Daughter

Find them

Your Good Daughter searched

And found


Persephone bring us to your Mother


*


Gecko

Sacred to Demeter


Snake

Sacred to Demeter


Demeter is

God


*


Demeter

Every year

Your daughter dies

And you walk

Half the year to Hell


Again and again

Every year

You walk


The crops die

And you walk

Among us

Until Spring


Demeter

You are

With us

In our houses

Come Yule


You have

A place

To stay


In my house

For the winter

Long nights

Warm with cocoa

By the fire

We’ll find her

In Spring


*


Winter

All this

Makes me

Feel sad


Because I can’t find

Any of it


Nothing


Demeter

Try me


I can’t


I’d like to Dearly


But I hold back


Why has

The world

Done this to me?


I can’t call


I can only call


I want to call

You too


Every animal is out in the wild


Every animal is a girl


a mother


Every animal is a mother


In the wild

There’s no difference


*


Why won’t

The muses


Write


Call


Dream


Dream


Seed


From Bed

To Dream


Mother

Of me


I am

Other


Find me


Gone

The bird

Cries


lost

The rain

Stops


The Bird

Cried


Dry again

Dry


We can’t fly

Fly


Call

Like a clock

Tock

Talk


Time be near

Fear

Fear


Bird

Call


The bird

Speaks


After

The rain


I can’t

Write it down


The letters

Make no sense


The beginning

Is always

Missing


Sit

Sit

Say


Listen:

The bird call


I can’t make

Sense


I can’t know

Her


She is too

Focused

On her daughter


And not on me


*


Mothers

Are focused

On children


I come to you

As a child

To get noticed


I wear her in a lifetime

I pretend I am lost


And perhaps

You’ll notice

I’m hiding

Inside


If I don’t hide

You’ll see me

And look elsewhere

Your gaze is on the distance


Your mind is on Your Daughter

You don’t see me

Waiting

To be noticed


I feel a fool

To get between you

And your desperate search


All I can do is help


Look too

For Persephone


And when we find her

You’ll be happy again


You’ll go away with her

I’m jealous


I’m jealous of

Every child


Who has a

Mother

Who stares obsessively

Into their little face


The bird cries

And I cry


I don’t want to feel

Hurt


I don’t want to cause

injury


I’ll hide these poems


And never publish them


Because

I can’t compare

You to

Any experience


What is THAT BEEPING?!?


This city


Is that actually a bird?


Holy fuck


*


Erysichthon

Horribly hungry

Sir

Not from any curse


You

Abandoned him

For selling his

Daughter


*


BIRD!


Screaming!


The rain has stopped


The bird


Is SCREAMING


This is why

I hide


But

Nicippe

Public priestess


You go about


do


Public

Priestess

On her rounds


She can’t be

Calling

For

The war


She’s

Public Priestess

She’s got the keys


She’s

Public Priestess

She has a hold

Of the

Key

She’s breaking open the door

She’s going

Inside

And she’s

And she’s

And she’s


Public Priestess!

WHAT ARE YOU DOING!?!


She’s gone

And opened

The


And thrown out

the


She’s swept the


She’s


THE TEMPLE



Ready


she comes home


Public Priestess

You know

What you’re about


Bossy Lady

You go

Do

The Public Priestess

Of Demeter


The All Mighty

Goddess

Of

The

Universe

And

Universe


Ohhh… I get it

She’s not in

Demeter’s temple


*


Demeter

Your sanctuary

At Corinth

Had tables and tables

For feeding

The hungry


Tables

And tables

For feeding

The poor


We ate

Wheat

fruit

All that grows

In the earth


*


Demeter

This is a refuge

This is a safe place


I return every morning

To try again

It’s not because I’ve promised


I love how I feel

When I think about Demeter


I love the little voice that

Tells me everything will be all right


The woman

Who tells me to find peace in quiet


Something I can’t do.

She stays and tells me again


Silent peaceful contemplation


I didn’t know each god had

A feeling

That means more than their supposed character traits


It’s best for me to understand peace

safety and quiet


This is her place

A peaceful home

A glorious palace

And everyone

Lives inside

in equanimity


We eat together

at large tables

The same good food

And the animals eat

And they walk


Demeter Khloe

Demeter Green

Peace is found


I sit, run, play

In your lap

In endless sleep


Demeter Anesidora

Demeter Sender-up of Gifts

From nothing I have bounty

Peace, a happy life


Demeter Thesmophoros

Demeter Lawgiver


Without fair laws

Those with less go hungry

Your bounty is horded

By the rich


But with fair laws

Each get their portion


Demeter

The right to be safe

Well fed

Housed

And treated fairly

We are equal

In life as well as death


Demeter

Under Your Law

Women are free

They do not stay in their houses

They control their own bodies

They are free

Abortion is legal

Childbirth is safe

Women are protected and free


Under Your Law the women

Are so protected

They believe they could survive

Without You


They go about in their bodies

As though anarchy would be fun

They are fearless and undaunted

They are happy free fools

Who live in a paradise

They never lose


Blessed are you Demeter

For seeing this to fruition


Demeter Prostasia

Patron Goddess

Demeter Protector


You find me food, shelter, comfort

You give me peace and hope

With you my worry is outside of me

Pressing against the barrier

Of Your Protection


I am safe

I have peace

hope

Demeter you hold us

When we die

Your daughter

takes my hand

I am brought

To a place of bountiful peace

A secret happy home

Demeter you are there

Waiting

A secret surprise

I knew all along


*


The torches are born by Hecate

The procession brings me out at Night

I follow the light

And dance

With those who will

Come after


We’ve seen

What’s in the basket

We’ve drunken the funny wine

We’ve seen the true

Hereafter

We accompany

The Divine


The plow digging earth

Breaking cracks of


Light


Day—


A new day


Demeter

Flutter flutter

The butterfly

Flies


Demeter

Your hair

Sparkles


Demeter

Don’t cry!

Months pass


You will see

The child of your heart

Is eager to return


Demeter

The butterfly

Flies

A dipping path


Demeter

I feel happy

Focused on work

Good


Bless me with

Good feelings


Demeter

Contended

I settled frustrations

With a calm heart


Beckoning

The good rain

Fields Grow


Tally it

Fully seeded

Fully flowered


It’s December

And Demeter rests

In my house

A guest

From Olympus


It’s January

Demeter won’t go

To Olympus

Today

No


Demeter

Wanders

In Winter

To all the

Little houses


Knock Demeter

Enter

Be my guest

Rest


Demeter

If I do not offer well

It is from a lack of knowing

For my heart grieves

For all those lost and loved

We all share pain


Demeter

Happiness

I bring you


Deo

Brings fire

In winter Wandering torches

In her hands

Searching for her daughter

In the cold

She brings the fire

Of her torches

To our hearth


She brings blessings and warmth

In the season

Of light and hope


Bringing back the flame

Of hope

To keep us warm

When it snows


*


Demeter

Traveled the world

Through the icy snow

Bearing torches in search

Of her lost daughter

Who hid below


Demeter brought fire

She wandered

Our earth of ice and cold


Demeter

Our lady of sorrows


Demeter

Your love

Is boundless


Demeter

You are here

Walking among us

Searching

Bringing aid and comfort

relief to refugees and homeless


Demeter

Hear my prayer

Give me a good life

Long and prosperous

Happy and helpful

To human kind


Demeter

Teach me compassion

That I can stand

Understanding


*


Demeter

Hear my prayer

May there always be good food

At my table

May there always be a warm home

For my rest and play


May those I love be happy and healthy

May my life be easy and good


*


Demeter

Bless this food

We are about to eat

May your grace and light

Shine forth

Over our lives

As we give thanks

For your bounty


*


Demeter

Grace me

With a good life

A good death

And a happy afterlife


*


Demeter

Tell your daughter

To give me a good reincarnation


One where I will be

Happy and productive

And contribute to the world

Without bringing harm

To myself or others


*


Demeter

Grant mothers

Peace

Let the love for their children

Not be a burden

They cannot bear

Let loving a child

Be a fullness

That allows mothers

To create and be

Who they’ve always wanted to be


Let the greatness of motherhood

Shine through

In a world that hides from the truth


Awaken the truth of Motherhood

Make the world

Respect, aid and value

Mothers and their work


Let me no longer be afraid


Let women no longer fear


Let children care for their parents

Help those

Who need help

And Compassion


The truth of us

Demeter

Reveal the way

To a better world

Where there is less hunger and war


Give us the laws needed

And the will to enforce them


Give us the wisdom to see

The charlatans and brutes

Among us

For what they are

And may we never follow them


*


Demeter

Give me the good Earth

Healthy and whole

If the world is burning

Bring rain

And intelligence to the minds

Of those who need to understand

The earth is in danger

Of losing her children

Of dying in space

Alone


Demeter help

Us save the Earth


*


Demeter

We live in troubled times

Good laws are being broken with awe instead of shame

The world is burning while those in power are not listening to

the truth

The people are growing weaker

They are losing their schools

They are not able to be anything but angry

Help the people of the planet


*


Demeter

Wandering goddess

Bringer of kindness

And boons of good fortune


Of calm

The peace we seek

Is in you


The future is bright

Where you look upon it


I see the future

With you


A place of peace

And lawgiving rules


Of earth calmed

From danger


The sun shines

On all

And powers

The free

Fertile land

Of our souls


*


Demeter

Giver of life

Bringer of hope

Justice is a place

Of well being


*


Demeter

Goddess of compassion

Mother of all

Help us

Keep our Earth


*


Demeter Green

Happy days are ahead

Promise me


*


Demeter

You mourn

But I see happiness

When I look at you


I see a secret


*


Demeter

I see the day

You return

Bright colors

Heat fields

Grows greater

Shoot higher


The grain bends

Under the fire of the sun


I see Your tension


The struggle

Of The Golden One

Life Bringer

Details attain you

Secrets grow

In odd places


*


Demeter

In your most fleeting thought

Is complete understanding


Your burden

Is a completely understood

Us


*


This is the way

To make peace

With the heart

Of the hearth


Let it cook ‘tilo it’s

Burnt


*


Given whole

With nothing

But ask


We ask for

Health

Wealth

Happiness

Success in endeavors

Deserving of success


*


Demeter

I pop myself

In the over


And I ask


Demeter

Ashes are first


Life is given


The pot boils


The fire

Send the put the fire out


*


Demeter

Bless

This endeavor


Let good effort

Grow

Wheat Fields


Let my success

Be reaped


Great

Vast harvests

Year after

Life giving year


Demeter

Grant me this boon


*


Demeter

Grant me

A blessed afterlife


*


Demeter

Guide me


*


Demeter

Give me strength

So that I may

Help others


*


Demeter

Bring peace

to my heart


*


Demeter

Help me find

A home


*


Demeter

Prevent me

From falling


*


Demeter

Protect me


*


Demeter

The fire

Burns

Low


Children

Are

Here


The winter

Snow

Falls


I am

Alone


*


Demeter

Guide me

To the good places


*


Demeter

Guide me

In all things


Show me wisdom

Keep delusion

Far from me


May I see

The truth

And feel peace


May truth

Never be a burden


May lies

Never deceive me


Demeter

Teach me

To live

In this world


*


Demeter

Teach me how to be

An easy farmer

Of good thoughts


*


Demeter teach me

To love

And respect myself


*


Demeter

Show me

The Way


*


Demeter

Give me

Wisdom

And skill


*


Demeter

Give me

Life


*


Demeter

Mother

Great

Bless me

With Your

Hands


*


Demeter

Mother

Confidant

Sacred

Complete

Good


Perfect Goddess

Wondrous

Familiar friend


*


Demeter

Speak your blessings

Into me


Flow into my body

Consume my present

Be here

Now


Hail Demeter


*


Demeter

Favor me


Speak

And be


*


Demeter

Gives me blessing


She raised her hands

In protection


Her secret words

Enter my ears


She touches

And anoints me


Demeter

I am received into

Your Holy Religious Order


*


Demeter

I follow

Over the earth


I am blessed

In your good name


Compassion

Is your way


Kindness

Your boon


*


Demeter

I am your

Daughter

Who dies


Find me

Free me

Let me come

Home


*


Demeter

I am your child


Find me


*


Demeter

Pulls me

From death


I go with her


To the place of

Paradise


I walk among

Goddesses

Gods


The butterflies

Awaken me


It’s time to return

To Demeter’s Land


*


Safe

I am safe

With Demeter


Steady, calm breaths

Bring me

To you


Demeter

Flows

Outward


Her heart

Yearns


Demeter

Is flowing

Outward


Demeter

Is flowing outward

I feel her

Flowing into me

The air is filled by her

Presence


The Earth

Is overwhelmed


All powerful

Grace Giving Goddess


I Radiate out

To meet You


I feel the encounter

With awe


Demeter

You are God


You are our needed

Savior


*


May the blessings of

Isis and Demeter

Be upon me


*


Demeter

Isis helps in the search

For your daughter


Isis

Demeter helps in the search

For your husband


Lost gods

Are sought

In towns

And among

reeds


Isis

Spirit

Soul

Body

Uplift

The heart

Soars


*


Demeter

Sees my spirit


*


Isis

Blessings

Give freely

To those you love


Well protected

Wings

Enfold us


Great of magic

Wondrous

mother


I am

Blessed


I am your child


*


Demeter

Great

Wondrous

Goddess


Blessed am I to know you


Blessed am I

Blessed are you

Blessed am I to be born of you


*


Bast


Toad

waiting to c u

jumping


Bast

Among us

The Cat


*


Cat Bast

Fine feline

Fur flippant

Paw


Cat Bast

Fur flippant

Feline


Cat


*


Pixie dust

Bast

Fat petals


Cat alive!

Kitty

Kitty


Snowflake

Petals

Fat girl happy!


Pixie girl

Petals

Alive alive


Fat girl

Kitten


Snowflake


Happy!


Fat girl

Kitty


Alive alive!


Snowflake

Fall petals


Cat girl


Alive alive!


Cat girl alive!


Pixie

Petals

Alive alive


*


But the

Dixie

Cat back

Alive alive


commin’ round the bend

commin’ to an end


Dixie

Cat back

Gone


Baby

Gone


*


Fifty

Cat back

Alive alive


Fifty

Cat back

Gone


Alive alive!


Cat back

Gone


Alive alive!


Go


Gone!


Fifty

Cat back


Gone

Gone


Five alive

Cat back

Gone


Fifty

Cat


Gone Gone


Five alive


Back! Back!


Cat back!


Alive alive!


Fifty

Cat back

Alive!


Fifty

Come and

Gone


Cat back


Alive alive!


Please come again…


*


Rhea

Titan

Flow

Ease

Blessing



Rhea

Save your children

From his life devouring mouth


His words

Poison


His summer is at an end


Rhea

It’s over

Bless this

As being

Over and done


Finished


Kaput


Rhea

Saved the many

From the one


*


Rhea

Rhea

Potions

Flow


From the pot


Rhea

Easy blessing


*


Mother of Demeter

Simple simple


Rhea

You ride the lion

You’re Boss


Rhea

Finally

Speak


Tell me your secret hopes

Give me your blessing

In whispers

Among a crowd

Of disbelievers


Rhea

Demeter


The crowds disperse

We stay

The ones who know better


Rhea

Secret

Mother

I hear you now


The lions roar

In my ears


Huge

Sharp

Giving


Blazes like pain

Gone away

Forever


*


Rhea

Miraculous goddess

The lion bends

To your word

With grace

Love


Rhea

All powerful goddess

Mother of Demeter

Bless Me


Rhea

Lion astride

Big as a mountain

Solid as stone


Perfect shining

God Rhea


Rhea

Molten

Shining goddess

Fire in the lion’s mouth

Shaking His head

In rage

Fights

Against all enemies


Rhea

Shining one


Protectress

Grandmother

Mighty

Giving

One


Bless me


*


Rhea

GrandMother

Mighty one


Giver of life

Sustainer of wealth


Blessed among the gods


Rhea

Shining One


Great

Powerful

Mother of All


Twin lions

Support the

Mountain


Great Grandmother

You Rest your hands

On twin lions


The world

Is at your feet


Mountain Mother of All

Great Goddess

Powerful twin Lions

Accompany

Your wide Rule


Great Goddess

Rhea

All powerful

Being


The lions roar

In greeting


Force of Might and Light

Blessed are you

Among gods


*


Rhea

Great Grandmother

Of Mine


All powerful

Giver of Living Justice


The evil lay

Trampled

Underfoot


*


Rhea

Great goddess

Powerful

Grandmother


Give me strength

And wise counsel

And brazen good luck


*


Rhea

Grandmother

Let magic

Work in my favor


Let all good things

Come to me


Repel evil

From my path


Grow the bounty

I reap

Daily


Give me

Life

Abundance

Charity toward others


Give me power

To rule

My heart


*


Rhea

Great goddess

Abounding light

Of clarity


Possessor

Of the truth


Grandmother

Power

Strength


Grandmother guide me

Be with me


*


Rhea

Flow

Into my body


Grandmother

Flow

Abound me


*


Grandmother Rhea

The Mountain

Protects me


Rhea

Mother

Giver of Life


Mountains

Resemble

Mirrors


Mountains

Flight

Of the bastard


The child with

No father


Mother Rhea

The bastards

Born of you

Bend

To Your will


Mother Rhea

All powerful

Goddess


Fighter

For truth

And justice


Bastards

All born

Of two mothers


I am

Your bastard

Child


Rhea

Goddess

Among many

Who reside

At your pleasure


*


Great

All giving

Goddess


Rhea

Mother

Of might


Your children

Are as lions

Fighting

You crush mountains

Sand underfoot

Easy are the deaths

You bring to your enemies


They fall dead

Willing sleepers

Of eternity


Great Grandmother Rhea

All Powerful Mighty Goddess

The Great One

All Powerful Protector

All Giving Mother

Mine


*


You tell me

There isn’t something there

That enjoys watching us suffer


That puts us on a bus

With an itchy crazy masturbator

That winds our keys

And watches


You tell me

There isn’t something

Enjoying our begging

Grubbing for money

That bends our souls

And our backs

And ruins us


All our striving

Nothing


My back hurts


I dared to want

The easy success others get

When they publish trash books


I dared to want

Success


Now my back aches

I’m bitter miserable and angry

I’m afraid I’m dying


I need a coin of dignity

Equality

I deserve both in abundance


I don’t have to lie and wallow

Self-hating punishing self

Rotten thoughts and ruinous moods

Ill feelings have no home in me


Be gone ugly hate

Punishing over decades old

Recriminations

Housed in the backward crooked roads

Of my mind

The tree lined roads of childhood

Memory shake

Bad thoughts out of false starts

and the loathsome Stares of strangers

Be gone weakness born in my face


(Answer…)


The city is

Our time New York


It stands

Stand me


Sooner the great fall

Befalls

No one


Later [after]

the dread fall

befalls none


Stranger,

The great fall

Befalls

None


I am Demeter

The One


Compassion

Is still

The fashion


Obama

Straight flush


*


Let

The private poems

Flow


Never to be

Written


Written


Stay stay stay

Stay be happy

Child of mine


Let the body rest

Let the mind go still

Relax


Morning—


Stay stay

The world will not end

While you are here

Stay


*


Construction next door

Breaks us

As we try to work

This morning


Weird banging churning

Wall noises

Vibrating banging

Laughing and talking

No one can think

Around here


*


Morning note—


Cat/or/the cat says

Would that I were a twister

Of both yarn and birds


*


I don’t feel well

Woozy, I’m hot

My back is springing sweat


On the rare morning

I wake with something

To say

I am glad


*


Demeter

I can’t feel anything

But heat


Demeter

Should I stop?


Peace

Calm

Is always the way to begin


So let’s start


*


Blue Friday

With nothing to do

I need money

For a new computer


there

is heat lifting

my body coils

down


Cat Bast basket cat

Basket cat of monne


Cat bast basket

Cat basket catof monne


Hot again

Calm


*


The construction

Outside

Is there

Forever


The noise

Will never end

The drilling

Sawing

Hammering

Shouting


The rich

Getting their crap

Fixed up

Over and

Over

While away

In the Hamptons

the Riviera


And I sit poor

Hiding

Listening

To the work done

On their homes

Ingesting dust and fumes

Until I’m a mad old woman

From the pollution


While you live in your

Nicely renovated houses

And I’m in my hole

If I’m lucky to have it


*


Demeter

Demeter

Demeter


The snow is falling

It’s the dust of construction

It’s killing the flowers

The plants all die


We starve

From lack of

Peace


From the will

To live

In a home

Given by

The gods

And taken by

The neighbors


Demeter

I speak of nothing


Demeter

I cannot think

Of the calm


The peaceful places

Where there is no one

To bark


*


Demeter

Bast

Is running at me

She is leaping over my head

I’m a bonfire

She jumps over

Cleansing the burning wood


She startles

Leaping over my face

Her clawed feet

She’s a cat

Leaping

Above me

Flying


Bast

Running

Fast


Bast

Running after It


Caught

She rends


A body

Is leapt upon


I am

saved


When that witch

Hunted down

That which

Hurt me


That which

Hurt me

Died


*


Bast

All fast

With speedie

Fight


Cat

Danger cat


Bast

Fight


Bast

Might

Cat


Of river’s end


Bast

Feral

Free

Drink

Merriment


*


When I need to see cats and there are none?

How is this possible?

How is this humanely possible?


Who is the first one I see?

Come on… I want to see a cat

On tumblr…

… an owl

A cat!

White-grey

With a witch

Who wants to use tofu

Instead of eye of newt

Good


Yes!

A black cat

From the 1960s

Good


Lots of shouting today…

The good kind

Laughing


Still, annoying


*


So uninspired

So broke

en down


*


Bored

With the feeling

Of sitting


Bored with

Time passing

The beginning


But I’m alright!

I’m okay

Today


Another day

Is here


And I’m alright!

This day

Will be

Silly

Here’s hoping


Silly good days

Are worth it


*


The silly good say

That the silly good say

The silly good say lilly


Bloomin’ flower

Of my hour

The silly good say lilly

Flower


They laugh! The fools!


I’m going to have

A nice day

With Supercar

And games


I’m not going to worry

Today

I’m not going on

Upwork


I’m not going to

Feel urgent!


I’m going to have a nice

Day of *Supercar (*Cannabis)

Fun games

Maybe comic books

It’s Friday

Supercar

When we go walking

I start humming

Supercaaaaaar!

Supercaaaaar!

It travels the EArth!

All over the Sea!

Something something of the aaaaage.

Supercaaaaar! Supercaaaar!


Today is going to be a good day

It shall be very nice

It shall have sweets

And games

Comic books

And space shows

I will act silly

And it will be fine


*


Today shall be so nice!

There will be sweets and

Giggles


*

Today I will be happy

We’ll have a lovely time

I swear!

I refuse

Worry

I won’t accept

pain

I won’t plan

Anything

No future

Not today!

Go away tomorrow!

We’re busy here

With cake

And scifi

And moody moody Mondays

Will come as they come

But go away!

Sad don’t come near

Worry get out of here

Sorry go away

Go away!


*


Happiness

Be my best friend

Success be my partner

Joy smile with me

Laughter come along

Let’s go!


We’re off

On a great adventure


We’re high

The skies are deep

Penetrable

Homes in the skies

Of our magic

Palaces


We fall in whip cream

We slip on rainbows

Bast! There you are

Where are all the kitties?


Where’s my kitten?

I want one


*


Demeter

How can we acquire

Good wealth

To sustain us

Long term?


What is the best possible route?

Can you help?

We want to thrive

And live comfortably

Without worrying about money

Or health

Demeter can you help us do this

All down through the years

Teach us what grows in the soil

Of good fortune

Help us grow and reap

All good things

All bounty

Demeter bless us


*


One more time

I try to write a book

But

The plot

Thinnens


*


The man I saw

On the bus the other day


He wasn’t masturbating

No


He had a desperate need

as he paced the bus

once

before sitting

his eyes

hurt

his mind distracted

But before he sat

He put newspaper down on his seat


He itched

everything

and pulled his arms into his shirt

to form a tent

he hide his head and hands inside

to scratch

and pick


I saw a pair of cargo shorts

Hanging from a tree branch


Is there some secret catastrophe?

Are our homeless shelters caught

in an epidemic

Hidden under the clean and wealthy?

An infestation of fleas

Are we a

Witness

To worsening conditions in our homeless shelters?

Is there something going on?


*


Demeter

The comfort

Is you


But Demade

Mouth and tragedy

Are yours


*


I remember leading you

Beside the fruit stalk


I

Fought

Released the fear

I’m getting


Extremely citamous home


The swing

mutually desist


Anxiety abounds avoids me


*


Gods!

This was such a mistake

Hermes help me!


*


Hope

for survival is gone

Every attempt ends in failure

Every road crossed half way

Avalanche unpassable

It’s too narrow


How can I do this alone?


We wait for a miracle

that isn’t coming


*


Demeter

Gives comfort

And takes it away

Because overask


I ask too much,

too often


things that can’t be:

money from writing

anything of value to me


The weather is wrong

it rains too much

fire everywhere far away

how can my petty needs be helped

when nothing can?


The weather is wrong

Mother help!


*


Great Goddess Isis

I am lost


I am not able to do

what must be done


I’m not smart enough

Or young enough


There’s nothing I can do

if Grainedmother

refuses me


I haven’t been silent

I’ve broken Her trust


And now I don’t trust anything

no good thing is true


Why ask me

from the start to

be silent?


A taboo you know

I’ll break?


Why prove

a negative?


A bird in a box


Warn me

like a sphinx


are you really

that cruel


to tell me the truth

up front?


*


Demeter

Today is a wonderful

Remarkable

One quiet day


No one is home

The basement is flooded

Beautiful!


Who can do laundry?

No one!

The basement is flooded


Who is in the hallway?

No one!

The building is empty


No construction!

No laughter

No talking


A day in a decade!


One quiet day


Blessed Demeter!


A day of peace


Gift of the gods

I could cry

And the only sound

Would be me weeping

For joy


*


No neighbors across the way!


O lovely day Demeter


This is Demeter

This is peace


Peace in the silence


Who would I be

if this could be every day?


every choice would change

every thought for ten years

a different thought

in peace

in silence


O lovely lovely day

Demeter the silence

is sanctuary


i break down and cry

at the silence


the sweet peace

empty silence


O holy day

of blessing


*


O lovely silence!


Demeter

You are beautiful silence

Within everything


You are the unheard sound of

Growing grass


The lovely bliss of empty time

Full of living stillness


You are the plant that tells

No secrets

And gives away her seeds


*


Demeter

Bless the dead

Bring them to

A blessed afterlife


*


Hermes lead the dead

Into the blessed afterlife


*


Persephone

Bless our dead

Bring them seeds of life


*


Great Athena

Shining one

Mighty

Bless us


*


Zeus

Comfort us


*


Isis protect us

Bless us

And our loved ones


*


Pasaya

Be near me

Always


*


Aphrodite

Help us

Cope


*


Hera

Great Queen

Help us

Forever


*


Hermes

Help me

I’m afraid

Of death’s creep


*


Who came out


I say or who

I say it to

The day

With all her might

The sun shines

Down

Afire


The day is who she lifts the day

Who is she who lifts?

The day?


The sun the shun!

She’s bright and gay

It doesn’t matter what I say


The sun! the sun!

Is bright and gay

She shines with

Powder Pow Power


Her fire is the force

She is the winged flower


The sun the sun!

Fierce is She

who powers

Power’s Pow


She shines

Bright

Bright


Sun Glowing

Light

Glow Go

Sky orb


Bright

Beautiful

Brother moon


The ibis in the

Reeds

Pounded power

the elixir is


the sun! the sun!

awaken me

bring light into my heart

bright soul into my day

cradle me in Your ribcage

swing me in night

Protect and rise!

Great Sun

Sky Goddess

of Light


Shine

bless

Give away

Awaken in me the spirit


Bring my soul forth


*


Tanit

Blesses

Her hands are up

In a

Stop


It’s a Go


Your benediction

Reaches me


Far away


Your Grace

Radiates


Your hands

Moonlit

Rainbows


Shooting forth

Your perfection


*


Nervous!

Demeter

Again today

I have nothing

But silence

I can’t keep


I’m scared and

The house is difficult

For it


*


Hermes help me

Get through this


Help my body be calm

Today

As I perform this

Difficult task


Help my mind be

Unrocked

By turmoil


Help those around me

Cope


Help us help ourselves


*


Demeter help us

Be safe

And healthy


*


Demeter

I’m a wreck today

Of small worries

Fed by

Lack of knowledge

Being shut inside


I want to handle myself

Better

Peace calm

Success leads the way

And I follow


Silence is what I contemplate

While nattering


I claim not to speak

But my hands type


I claim stillness

When I move


I seek peace

and worry


about the terrible little

things that catch us all


the great mass hysteria

of delusions

fed on fear

fed to us

as interesting news

and no, that’s not crazy

wait that’s crazy

but we can’t do anything about it


no one has an answer

we’re all children now


the old and wise

are gone


what’s left

are grown up children

pretending

not to be afraid

of all the little details

that go into dying


Well, I’m afraid

Of all the little details

Help me Demeter

Be in the details of my

Life and death

Make our lives and deaths

Good

Be with us

Your Daughter be with us

Your friends and family be with us

Demeter

Of the far reaching consequences

The seed that grows

Is blessed by your loving attention

You are mother of us all


*


Demeter

I wish to grow old well

I want to remain useful

I want my body to be healthy

My mind sharp and healthy

Demeter make this so

I want old age to be good

I want those I love to have the same

Good life


*


Demeter

I need to accomplish a thing today

I need to do it well

Help with the thing

Demeter

Mom!

Help me with the thingie

I’ve got to do

You understand


*


Demeter

Gracious Goddess

I’ve never offered you anything

I’ve never said your name and placed

A gift on my altar


This was to be my gift

But it’s all asky for me

For stuff I need stuff


I can’t find enough about you


Everything about you

Is about someone else

The word ‘mother’

is about some other


*


Mother Demeter

The place you sit

Had been prepared

Since forever


Mother Demeter

I don’t understand

What I do for money

It makes no sense

If it isn’t fun it works

If it’s fun it doesn’t

Both injure my body

For no reason


Money comes from

That which has no value

Money is a poison to my life

A fuel I must take

It’s the only method

We have

In this awful culture

Of commerce


Mother Demeter

I don’t understand money

Which feels like why I don’t have it


I don’t get how sometimes it falls

Like snow

Into snowballs

Into snowforts

For some

And for the rest of us

None


We try to be nice

And kind

In a world that punishes kindness

Rewards the worst people with the most money

Anyone creative suffers


Everyone works too hard

Everyone is angry

Embittered

And feeling entitled


Because we ARE entitled

To a better life

Than scrounging for money

Gives us


Especially now when

We could make the world

Again


We could use what we know

To build real equality


We need you Demeter

Mother

Giver of just laws


To get us through

This collapse

Of capitalism


*


Demeter

Mother

Why are your children poor?


Don’t you care that we have

Nothing?

While others have more?


Demeter

Your children suffer

Where are you

To help us?


Demeter

I am your child

I worry night and day

Over money

Is this how you wanted it to be?


Demeter I am your child

Help me succeed in making money

So that I may feel secure


I hate money

I hate it every day

I curse money

Over and over

And I hate it

I love the feel of money

In my hand

I love saving it

Making it

It’s worse than gambling

It’s worse than the lottery

Because it’s a lie

Money is nothing for nothing


When I do it for money

The part that needs quashing

For money money money

To flow through


I’m always the bump

In my road

I’m the place the bus

Stops


How can I change this forever?

I want to make money in a way that

Is a value to me

And doesn’t hurt my body


Why do we suffer for money?


Demeter

How could you let your children

Suffer in fear

While those who live well

Deny you and your daughter


Many of them

Want your children to suffer

Because they make money

They live well

When they take money from us


How can you let them do this?

Demeter

We are your children

And we have no money

There are pagans today

Who worship you

And other gods

And we need your help

To survive

We suffer

When we should thrive!


Demeter

Call the gods to you

And tell them of our plight

Give us success and wealth

As you have always promised


Demeter

I feel fear and shame to ask such things

But I ask

Because the truth is we have no money

All your pagan children

Are poor

And afraid


We need your help

I ask because of this


*


When did

‘getting by’

become wealth?


When did

You have just enough

To survive this month

Become

I’m wealthy?


Demeter your

Pagan children

Need you


We need more than

Enough

We need true bounty

All of us

We need Wealth


*


Demeter

The rich misjudge you

The poor ask you


I’m asking you

For help


*


Bounty

You promise bounty

Your mysteries promised me


We have all performed the mysteries

We have all looked in the basket

We have all done the secret hidden things required


All of us pagans

We have done this

All of us who live today

We have done this in our dreams


In our thoughts

We have done this

We have done this in the day and night

We have completed your task

We have done everything you asked


And why have we not?

Can you say it isn’t true?

If it’s a secret, then I shall have it

Hidden inside me

And I say I’ve done these things

We all have

Demeter

Great goddess

We are your sacred children

We have done the things necessary to

Be initiated


We are your children in time

We are those who remain

Those who stayed ourselves

In time


Demeter

We have performed the rites

We have undergone the mysteries of your cult


Recognize us!

We are your pagan children

Down through time!


*


The bells have wrung

The sky dome

is open to us

We are done


*


I am restless

I want to write

Three books

At once


*


Demeter

Speak

My silence

Is unimportant

I am silenced

By your absence


No one will hear

No one will see


My face

My mouth open


The words

Into silence


Empty

I look for the river

Empty

I sleep

Awake

Empty

I can’t find

Gone

In all my mistakes


I can’t find

Demeter


*


Before I rest

I got a friend

Who told me

Rest


Before I sleep

I got a friend

Who told me

Sleep


Now I close

My mind

My eyes are

Wide Awake

I can’t know the

Red desert

Friend

Freed freed

Dress wearer


Best dress friend

Sad freed tree

From the freed Head

Freed hed

Jest rest


*


Demeter

How sad for you

How sad the one

Freed from had

Freed from has

Demeter

Freed but had

Demeter

Ghost freed

From has


*


keep going!

Keep great straight

There freed sendoff

Gestalt

Rubbernecking

Great

Today

Freezer Freed eon enter red as a dj


I great freed bread

Great git a dorm and got

Long estuary

Girlywump

Gud read

Breadtiful

Go to the top gruad read

Top great g-top

Fread b


*


Pore great freed

freed

deerf


Persephone

Goddess

Hidden good


Dead

subjects

the bountiful


Great Queen


Bless us


Persephone

Demeter

Climb

Rise

Go

Beloved

Child


Persephone

Has a shining palace


Persephone

Frightens the living

She comforts the dead

She gives bounty to both


To Her we are wed


In eternity’s

Circle


Persephone

Has taken people

I love

Down


Into her kingdom


They feast by her side

They are happier than we who remain


*


Persephone

Has a palace

Under the earth

and in the sky

It arcs

Over the universe

A great curved boat

Sails


Persephone has a palace

Full of meadows


*


Persephone,

Her pet

Cerebus,


When we die

We go

A good home

After a while

We travel

Persephone rises

out of death by Demeter

pulled up

We are the roots as she rises

Into the sky

We fly

To our mothers

Again


*


Great Persephone

Your palace

Is a home


Your palace is a welcoming place for

The good dead

Who wish to

Stay

And be happy

Well fed

Brought back to life

Inside death

Brought back to life

Awakening flower

Your stem is sturdy

Your flower is

Pollinated

By the bee

Who brings forth life

From the bull’s head


*


Persephone

Bees dance in

The meadow

Of the dead


The flowers are beyond

Perfect

You are their sun

Persephone

You are our joy

We who live after death

In the vast rooms

Of your Palace

You have welcomed us

Great Mother

Of home and life again

Everlasting

Peaceful cycle


*


Mother Persephone

Goddess of death

Beautiful daughter

Of the Great One

Giver of all

Most Hold

Fear

But I hold

Hope

Knowing that one day

We will meet


*


Persephone

Goddess

Fear is

Fear is

But there is no fear

After death

When Hermes takes my hand

And guides me


When Isis and Her Sister

Protect me


When Athena counsel’s me


I arrive in a wonderful secret place

Only the dead understand


*


Persephone

Give me life

After death

Give me the loop

Through which to walk

I walk through the hoop

Beribboned

I move past the dark

To light

Persephone

I call for the child

I cry out at the arrival


We are together safe forever

The gannet dives

Into the sea


*


Persephone

Protectress of the dead

Keeper of the great and bountiful House

The underworld is the sky

The clouds are under my feet

I walk and listen to birds below

The sun is brighter here

The stars gleam and glitter

The world is above and below me

The moon is under my toes

I step against the moonbeam and soar

Persephone this is the place you

Call Home


*


Persephone perfect wanderer

Into and out of life

A doorway you peer from

In spring the flowers

Burst forth

Life renewed


*


Persephone

Goddess of perfect light

Of giving and bounty endless

Of the fire that guides within

Of the flames in all our hearts


*


Persephone

You climb out of the window

You sneak out of your mother’s house

The fields at night are quiet

You meet friends


Persephone

Beautiful goddess of death

We are all afraid of you

We worry you might see us sooner

Than we intend


Bless us with long good lives

And do not dislike our fear


*


Persephone arrives because of death

As a saint

She appears for us

There is nothing to fear

After the fact


*


Persephone

I hear voices

Outside my window

In an enclosed garden

I hear bottles fall and roll

They distract

Two people

Far more than a blue bird

At any window


Persephone

Great goddess

I hear voices


The sun is hidden inside a hazy sky

The gentle tapping of typing


I keep my head down

I don’t have to look out the window

And see them


Two men

with a ladder


There is nothing fun

Only there is

I feel I must keep typing, head down

To avoid them


These men in the garden

Go!

Get out of my path

Leave

be gone


So I type,


Persephone

Garden goddess

Wondrous flowering light

Persephone great and fearless

Guide and master of night


Great Persephone

Powerful Protectress for those who pass

Beyond the doorway

Of death


Persephone

Wondrous goddess

You tower into the night sky

A beacon of hope

For the dead

Who cry out

Persephone stay


We will hide until we see your face

Your great luminous presence

lights the night


Persephone great Beaconess of the dead


More powerful than the Sky Herself

Great and Wondrous Goddess

Of ever

Of forever

The night is your Prowess

The day is your dream

The dead keep a door key


Persephone Great Goddess

Powerful in all ways of the great being

The torches of the living are weak

the blaze of the dead bright

The light of your palace illuminates

the holy universe

The great place of the dead

Home away from home

Perfect in every way


The way of the dead

We follow you

We who are dead

We pass through you

We rise up

The sky welcomes

We come under the free light of day

The dreams of Persephone range

Through the wide world

The dead feel it

They fly with you Persephone

They are intricately connected

To you Persephone

More than we alive are to the gods

Persephone

You are wearing a dress of bright colors and its huge flowing folds spread across the Universe

We enwrap ourselves in your holy garment

Your presence is our light

The sky is the dome of our meager awareness of You

The fire never consumes

The heat of all comes from You Persephone

Giver

To the dead


Great and Most Powerful Goddess

It rests in your hand

Like a plaything ball of yarn


We are the children of gods

We sing to hear You sing

We dance to feel You dance

You are Us

You are all that We are and Will be


*


Fall fall

The ills of life

Fall away


Persephone! Persephone!

All sadness is done


*


Demeter

Keep me keen

And able

All through the years


Demeter

Vast are

The places

I can go

Freely and

Happily


Demeter

Keep me


*


Demeter

Keep us

Healthy and safe



Demeter


I remember

You

And unfold peace


Anxiety

Falls at your silence

Slip away over your grass


In comfort you are there

to still my ageless soul


Demeter

Let me always

Return


Demeter

Someday

A cool place

Will take this heart

From me

And I’ll be gone


*


Demeter

Swiftness

The bunny


Beside were three

Beneath earth

Sat four

And five maiden flower


Six fall

Seven go

Eight drive

Me to de after

Nine couldn’t blink


Thumbed steadfast the pilot

Of the real


She’s from

The beginning of this

She’s from

The ending

It’s heavily booked


The archway

pertains


So nice

to be doing it already

so nice noce to be done



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